- 2 years ago
I’ve been feeling pretty down the last few days, i think its a mixture of holiday blues and being back at work but I recently went on holiday with a bunch of guys and girls and came back feeling more unattractive than I have ever felt (the holiday was great however) All the girls were talking about how guys approach them in bars, all there boyfriends or ex’s etc and a lot of the guys on the trip were hitting on the other girls…no one hit on me 🙁 I don’t sleep around and I think I give off that vibe when Im out a clubs/bars which I think turns off guys. I don’t (or didn’t) think I was hugely unattractive till now, i have a nice smile, workout, have interests and hobbies, my friends say im kind, funny and guys have called me “wife material” before but why is it not guys ever want to date me and make me their girlfriend?
I’ve had 2 short term relationships in my life each lasting 6 months and I just turned 26. I have had countless dates, almost all have asked for a 2nd date but I rarely go unless I can see a future with them, partly this is due to not wanting to waste my time the other part is financially I can’t keep going on dates with guys if i see it going no where as I live in an expensive city and would feel bad if a guy was paying when I had no intention of seeing him again. ive been single since the last guy for over a year however we stayed in contact for most of the year and i always held out hope we would get back together, I cut the cord in March and felt better for sometime but the longer Im single the worse im starting to feel.
I have only ever been told I was loved once by the 2nd boyfriend (one mentioned above) when he was drunk and actually after we broke up (we stayed friends for a while and this happened about 5 months after the break up)
The older I get the more I genuinely feel I am unloveable, as all my friends pair off, get married and consider the future I feel like Im stuck not moving anywhere. I would love to meet someone and plan a future with, im in no rush for kids and marriage but it would be nice to meet someone where they see it on the cards with me in the future.
I’m losing hope 🙁 Anyone else felt like this and went on to meet their long term partner/husband etc?