- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2015
As I finally joined the Bee – in hopes of finding some other ladies who are “waiting” as I am – I thought I’d share my story.
The short version is, I’m very happily cohabitating with my boyfriend of 5 years, and in the past was never dying to get engaged or anything. But, as of recently I’m feeling SUPER anxious about it. We have talked about our future, and know we are going to spend the rest of our lives together. He insists that he wants to be the one to propose and I absolutely can not propose to him. But I feel like i JUST.CAN’T.WAIT. anymore and I’m going to go CRAZY! (help, please!!)
So, please forgive me, but I need to get this all out before my head (heart?) explodes 🙂
After what has been a few looong months (ok, years) of constant asking/pestering/pressuring from friends and family about when we are going to get engaged, the last few days have pushed me over the edge and ended with me in frustrated tears – twice! Most of our friends are engaged at this point, and one of our closest couples-friends sealed the deal a few months ago. I agreed to help them with their wedding invites, which has naturally kept me thinking about the subject. Next, over the last few weeks, two more of my friends have gotten engaged.
Then, a few days ago (as I mentioned in a comment on another post) my grandma offered us an heirloom engagement ring/wedding band set. My SO declined the offer, saying he wants to save up and buy one for me himself. That’s wonderful and fine, of course, but I know that means we will not be getting engaged for a verrry long time (student loans + horrible economy = broke). I think it is very sweet and loving that he wants to save up and get me something nice and meaningful, and I’m trying my best to lay off and respect his very generous intentions. BUut, knowing that we could have a FREE ring, in just a few weeks, is killing me.
Then, last night.. oy. We were watching a tv show and the main character got married. As it’s the holiday season, EVERY commerical was for jewelry and several were for engagement rings. So, that was getting me down, but we laughed it off. Then, we got the news that another friend of ours had just gotten engaged. They have been together a very short time (although I think they are perfect and will have a beautiful life together) and the guy is, well.. in an even tougher financial situation than we are. I hate to say it that way, but it’s what I’m thinking, so there it is. That just killed me; I keep thinking, how is it they are enaged but I’m not?? It’s seems so unfair. Not to be overly dramatic, but I feel like they were sort of the last straw – now, the only people we know who are not married/engaged are our single friends.
So, that’s my story for now, thanks for listening 🙂 I know there are a lot of other ladies out there in the same situation, so please chime in and tell me I’m not alone!!