- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
…In just over 5 months I’ll be a wife!!
I ordered a Christmas present online for my mother in law today, and the gift certificate that comes with it says “Merry Christmas From Brenton and Rachael Clarke…”. This is the first time I’ve actually seen our names together and it triggered a bit of a freakout!
With all the planning, booking and saving now done, it’s the small things that are stressing me out. I’ve realised that I haven’t worked out how I want to wear my hair, what wording will go on the invites, will I add straps to my dress or not and the dreaded question…can I lose weight before the big day and will I hate myself if I don’t?
I’ve been dieting on and off since we got engaged nearly a year ago, and everytime it gets too hard I tell myself that “I have plenty of time” or that “I’m happy enough with myself as I am” or even “My dress already fits perfectly and losing weight will mean adding costs for alterations”. The harsh reality is that if I don’t start to do something about it now, I will probably end up miserable with myself for not putting in the effort.
I have at LEAST 15kg’s to lose. I’ve tried personal training and seeing a dietition. I KNOW what I need to do to lose the weight, but it’s SO hard. I always thought that having a ring on my finger would be my motivation and at the moment I am just constantly making excuses for myself.
I’m surrounded by people who complain about their size when they’re all thin/thinner than me already and it just gets me down. Mr Clarke tries to be supportive and motivate me, but he’s never been overweight in his life and just can’t understand.
I guess my question is, are any of you successfully working on getting wedding day ready and what is working for you?