- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
Disclaimer: I am so.confused. I’m also exhausted and rambly, so it may show. Sorry about the length D:
When I started dating Fiance, back in 2008 I had just graduated high school and I was working at Dunkin Donuts. I had no plans on going to college. My mother had talked me into doing an online program for a vet-tech degree instead of going away and well…I didn’t have the greatest time management skillz. So that sort of fizzled away after a couple months. I think it was scam, anyway. Regardless, I had said to hell with higher education and settled myself with baking bagels and pouring coffee.
Then Fiance and I got serious. He was in his second semester at Penn State. And one August weekend he suggested I fill out a FAFSA and give it a go. So I did. I decided that being a vet wasn’t in my cards, though, and thought Wildlife & Fisheries would be where it’s at. I had worked & volunteered at a local wildlife rehabilitation center. I loved it there. It’s honestly the greatest job and most fufilling work I’ve ever done. So I thought this would be a great decision.
Our campus is 10 minutes away from our house. The main campus (you know, University Park, the whole setup for Jerry Sandusky and all that great stuff that’s been on the news lately) is about 2.5 hours away. The way our campus works is that you do two years there (general ed.s) and then two years at U-Park to complete your degree. The only degrees you can finish at our campus are psychology and criminology. Fiance is a psychology major. It is then that I becam that girl. The girl who changes her plans and reworks her future because of a boy. I decided to be a psychology major, too, that way I wouldn’t have to live away from Fiance for two years.
I’ve been doing this college thing for four years. I need to go once extra semester to finally get that glossy sheet of paper that says “You now have a B.S. in Psychology – freaking woow, you rawk!” (provided I can pay for this extra semester .___. That’s a whole other beast). Aaaaand now I’m having second thoughts.
Now, I love psychology. I really do. I’ve learned a lot and I enjoy the topics and I’ve gotten a lot under my belt and invested in this degree (i.e., journal publications, poster conferences, etc) that should look decent on grad school applications. But I really, really, really, really, really regret not sticking with the wildlife degree.
And I’m not sure what to do. FI has been waiting for me to finish my B.S. so that we can both apply to graduate programs. But I don’t know if I want to spend the money, sweat and tears applying and going a graduate program if it isn’t what I’m passionate about. And I love psych…but I’m not passionate about it.
I guess I need to go and talk with someone to actually learn about the wildlife degree, because, I’ll be honest, I’m sort of clueless. I don’t know if it’s just an undergraduate program or if I would need to get further advanced degrees, what other job oppertunities are available aside from working with the game commision, etc, exist. I’m pretty ignorant on that.
But, provided I do that and I’m still itching, is it worth it to go back for another degree? My GPA is crap right now (between being homeless, my mother’s ALS, father’s cancer, depression, just an entire load of nonsense the last several semesters). Even if I apply to grad programs for psych, I’m probably going to be rejected. And then money. We’re essentially planning a wedding we have no money for yet (I don’t think Fiance would mind pushing it back, though), would my financial aid be different the second time around, would it even exist?
Has anyone done this, going back a second time? Was it worth it?