Post # 1
I am just wondering if any bees can relate. When I was 19 I weighed 93 lbs . Today I weigh around 120-124 lbs, which I know is healthy but since I used to weigh so little, I sometimes feel like I need to lose weight again! I get upset and frustrated with myself that I managed to gain 30 pounds over a period of 5 years even though I know I don’t need to/want to lose weight. I never take it out on my boyfriend or anything but I just get frustrated within myself and that does affect the relationship. Can anybody relate or offer any advice?
Post # 3
I have had an eating disorder off and on for years. All I can say is that I am part of many pro-ana websites that have really gotten me back into restricting. I hope that you do the opposite and realize how much you hurt yourself everyday. It’s an obsession and I hate every second of it. I cannot give you any on advice on how to recover I can only hope that you remember the misery of the obsession.
PM me if you want to talk. 🙂
Post # 4
Pro-ana websites? Omg I forgot these horrors exist. That is so disturbing. I’ve never struggled with a real eating disorder, but my sister was bulimic. My advice to you is to seek help, and seek it right away. Look for support groups or a therapist to discuss your unhealthy body image and compulsion to restrict. My understanding is that this never goes away, similar to any other addiction (drugs, etc) it is something you always need to be aware of and fight against, find actual, real things you can accomplish rather than self-harm. Also does your boyfriend know? It would be really good to get support and encouragement from him as well.
Post # 5
Yep – a life-long binge-er here. I know it is the opposite of anorexia but it is still an eating disorder. Sparkpeople.com has helped me a lot with coping strategies and since I started tracking my food intake I have reduced my binging (am I spelling that right?) from every day to being binge-free 85% of the time.
Post # 6
I’ve stugged with bulimia for 12 years, but I guess its more ED-NOS for the last 5 years. Everyday is definitly a stuggle. Every meal I pre-think, and if I feel I ate to much I will regret it for days after. Getting help can only go so far, its changing your thinking about food. Which is VERY hard.
Post # 7
The first thought I had when I stepped into my wedding dress was “damn I wonder how much weight I can lose before the wedding”. I literally started to freak out thinking omg how am I going to throw up in this thing.. It’s a lifelong sickness. Today I weigh 140lbs. The highest I ever have..I think about it all day every day. I have no advice for you, I need help too!
Post # 8
I was diagnosed with ED-NOS when I was in college. My worst times were in college when I would restrict/over-exercise.
I got help through a therapist, nutritionist, and psychiatrist. Honestly, it exhausted me. And the only time I ever really lost weight was when I ate at least 1200 cals and exercised moderately. I got sick of it, and finally, it went away. It took a lot of work on my part.
To this day I still struggle with anxiety around my weight and eating habits but am able to keep it in check. I still have a black-and-white mentality on eating (all or nothing; an entire pack of oreos or none if I’m dieting). You can do it….get help please!
Post # 9
- Wedding: January 2011 - Gardens of the World
I can relate! I developed anorexia when I was 16. In the past year and a half I am improved a lot and now I am what the doctor calls a “healthy” weight. But I still have frequent hateful thoughts about my body. I dont know what my actual weight is because I have banned myself from seeing the numbers on a scale, but I know I gained weight over the holidays because two pairs of pants no longer fit me. So I have been struggling with that recently.
I second what everyone else is saying- you cant recover from this alone and it would be a good idea to get some help from a counsellor. It took me ages to find a counsellor who I actually liked (and now I have a wonderful one who is the reason I think I have been able to recover this far) so if you dont feel comfortable with the first one you try, then shop around. It is best to find one that you feel “fits” with your needs.