- 2 months ago
- Wedding: June 2019
Not wedding related at all, but would love to hear your experiences. I have had anxiety most of my life. I’ve always worried too much, constantly over-think and tend to think very very negatively. As a kid I remember always being afraid of someone breaking into our house. I would worry and worry about bad things happening. I could never really relax. As I got older and into my teens life did not go as planned and I lost many immediate family members over a few years. This has been difficult but I have always felt that I came out ‘okay’ considering the circumstances. I just can’t help but think negatively or shake the feeling that something bad is going to happen. For the past couple years, my life has been GREAT. Like really great, no deaths, my family is doing really well, I met my amazing fiance and I got a great promotion at work! I feel like there is finally stability in my life and so much to be thankful and excited for but for some reason it makes me more anxious than ever. Still worrying about the next “bad thing” to happen. I can’t seem to just accept that things are going well and enjoy it. The constant worry and stress is causing me to miss out and enjoy all these amazing moments happening in my life. I have seen many therapists in the past and they do help get my feelings out and I feel better for awhile after but these irrational worries always return. It seems to be especially difficult lately and my fiance is worried I’m depressed. I have made an appointment with a psychiatrist next week. We are supposed to discuss a treatment plan that may involve a psychologist and medication. So naturally, now I’m worried about that haha. I know it may be for the best but still the thought of being on medication kind of freaks me out. Can anyone relate?