- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2012
I. Am. Going. CRAZY!
For a bit of a background, I have never really been an emotional person. Crying was reserved for funerals and the births of children.
Now, with that said, I was completely fine the first week of wedding planning. But, the further I got into it, the more overwhelmed I got. I had my mother, Future Mother-In-Law and bridesmaid to help me, but no one is very close to me.
My mother lives an hour away, and I have a 16 year old brother who plays lots of sports, and my mom and stepdad are usually busy with work or going to his sporting events.
My Future Mother-In-Law also lives an hour away, is about to have surgery to remove a tumor from her thyroid and is a nurse who works 12 hour shifts.
My Maid/Matron of Honor has a toddler and her husband is about to have back surgery.
My bridesmaid is about to move 2 hours away to move in with her boyfriend who is about to be deployed to Iraq.
My other bridesmaid is currently MIA. Not answering calls, emails, texts… anything, and she also lives 2 hours away.
I feel like I’m still doing everything by myself. Everytime I get something done, 10,000 more things seem to come out of nowhere. I know I have a while (14 months), but I wanted to get things done before I start my master’s program in January, at least most of it.
Now, I find myself crying more than planning. I try to make plans to have little get togethers, like lunch, where I can spend time with people but also do some wedding planning, but things are always coming up. I was supposed to go try on dresses with my mother tomorrow, but can’t.
I’m sorry, it seems so trivial when I write it down, but I’m so stressed out and overwhelmed. I know I should just relax, but that’s not me. Once I start something, I want to get it done as soon as possible. I don’t like to have things lingering for long periods of time, because I’m worried I’ll forget something…
Just needed to get that off my chest.