I know it is usually the other way around but when I was younger I had all the patience in the world with kids and would spend at least 3 days a week (if not more) babysitting for my sister. I couldn’t wait to have kids! I loved babies!
I had the “baby bug” in my teens, it hit hard but it has never came back…if I would have gotten pregnant at 18 I would have been super excited and over the moon. I really think I would have had the patience, responsibility, and would have been fine too. My boyfriend told me I was crazy and said absolutely no to kids, that he wanted nothing to do with kids till much later in life.
I am now 28 and while my fiancé (same boyfriend from high school) is now open to the idea of having kids, I am the one that is completely unsure about it.
We will be married in December and there is really nothing holding us back. We are not too young, we have jobs, we are responsible, etc.
Kids, however seem to annoy the heck out of me now and not sure how to deal with it. = /
I love birthing videos, the entire pregnancy miracle, reading about it, talking about, seeing pictures, I saw my nephew being born and thought it was amazing! I just don’t want to deal with the actual baby/toddler.
My other sister now has two boys, 4 and 5 years old. And while I love them to pieces and will babysit with no problems I really want to return them after 1 day. I find that I have way less patience with kids now then I did in my teens…
And I see how she struggles with them at times, the stress that they can cause her, and the occasional “OMG I need a break, just come pick them up NOW” calls and it just makes me think…do I really want that for me??
I feel a little “selfish” or “un-natural” thinking about not having kids and having these thoughts, but I am just scared that with the feelings I have, it might not be a good idea to have kids… EVER.
I am no longer sure that I have the patience or emotionally I can do it without going insane. LOL