- 8 years ago
- Wedding: October 2011
I am definitely not where I thought I would be in my life/career right now. I feel like, when I graduated college 6 years ago, the world was my oyster. I had an entry level job followed by a much higher level job and was definitely moving up in the world. Was renting a fab apartment, had a beautiful car, bought nice clothes, took nice trips. I knew I was headed somewhere.
Then, I lost my ‘good job’ and it took me quite awhile to find another one. I took a pretty big pay cut. I worked that job for awhile, and then was able to move on to a better paying job that I really loved. I thought I was getting my life back on track. I thought I would have room to move up, etc. However, the years turned into more years, and the job that was great four years ago has turned into a stagnant position where I now realize I am NEVER going to move up in it. My salary is totally stagnate and I am making the same amount as I did in the ‘fab’ job (the one I lost) five years ago. I’ve gone no where. It’s not for lack of trying. I’ve done so much to better myself – gotten several certifications, am working on my Master’s at night, etc.
I am frustrated because I’ve interviewed for other jobs and it is difficult to find one that pays more than the salary I’m making now. I can’t move up at my current job but there is no point moving out if I can’t get a better salary.
I’m renting a teeny tiny studio apartment. My furniture is old, secondhand, or cheap Ikea. I don’t have a car (live in the city, so I don’t need one and can’t afford one). My Fiance is moving in next month, but he is going through a career transition and will be unemployed for awhile.
To give some perspective, my older sister is married to a doctor who does quite well, they just bought a gorgeous house in a very upscale suburb, a brand new SUV, are picking out brand new furniture at pottery barn. Sister can afford to be a full time Stay-At-Home Mom to their kids. A few of my friends are making upward of $100,000 a year. A few own houses, nice cars, or a combination thereof.
I’m not jealous – on the contraire, I am SO happy for them and the wonderful life they have. I’m just a little sad that I’ve tried so much to try to achieve the life I want – I’m a hard worker, goal oriented, smart, etc, etc – and I just feel so stuck. I’m afraid Fiance and I are going to end up living in a run down house in a bad neighborhood and not be able to give our future kids a good life. I don’t know what else I can do to get where I want to be. I know money isn’t everything. I don’t want to be extremely wealthy – I just want a cute, cozy house in a nice neighborhood and a comfortable car to drive. I just can’t even afford a house or a car right now or get the kind of job I want or feel like I deserve, so I feel like I will never reach the point of having those things.
Sorry, this is just kind of a frustrated rant. Does anyone else feel like this?