- 3 years ago
I Have been diagnosed with social anxiety, however my social anxiety stemmed from some experiences I had 3 or 4 years ago, so I have not had it my whole life. The reason I mention a time frame is because I have always wanted a big wedding. Like there are pictures of me from ages 5-7, and I’m in a wedding dress designed for kids to play dress up in ALMOST every photo from that time period. Anyway, we decided to have a short engagement because we both have siblings getting married in the spring, so to be mindful to our parents we wanted to avoid having our wedding too close… So it was either wait almost 2 years from when we were engaged or get married super fast. My daughter from a previous relationship is already 3 and both my fiancé and I have always wanted to have kids close together so we want to get on that as well with at least one addition. But the closer we get to the wedding the more anxiety I get about the actual wedding day. I have such bad social anxiety that I was even afraid to ask my best friends in the world to be my bridesmaids because I thought they would think it was dumb. My best friends! Why would they think that’s dumb?? They all accepted and were very happy. But social interaction like that triggers my anxiety and now I’m picturing my shower, and my wedding day, and most eyes being on me, and I’m so scared. I would legitimately call the whole thing off right now and go elope if it weren’t for my parents wanting to throw me a big wedding, nicks parents wanting a big wedding, having already sent save the dates, and the fact that I know deep down under all this crappy anxiety I have always wanted a big amazing wedding too. Sooooo we have until the end of August. 4 months. I am really really hoping I can learn some coping methods between now and then because the closer we get to the wedding, the more I honestly think I will not enjoy the day.
is anyone else planning a wedding with social anxiety, or have you in the past? Please let me know what you did to help with it. I know I really want this and I’m getting so irritated by my anxiety getting in the way lately of large parts of my life.