- 7 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013
Anyone else being “babied” by family? My husband feels the need to hold my hand as we cross the street. My mom calls me ALL OF THE TIME asking me if I’m okay. It’s annoying. I want to tell them to save all of that for the later months when I feel like I’m twice myself and sweating like a sumo wrestler in the dead of summer.
My husband, on the other hand, handed me a fifteen pound bag of cat litter we were carrying to the subway the other day and was like, “You mind? My hands are getting tired.” When I gave him a look, he was like, “Whaaat?!”
Oh, honey! 😉
In Michigan and my car registered at -13 on my way in. Windchill had us at -38
Basically I’m bundled up here at work with a space heater pointed under my desk!
When it finally its 20 on friday, its going to feel like August out there 😉
I’m having one of those days where I’m worried about everything And feeling guilty about stuff I have no control over.
I wasn’t hungry last night at dinner time so DH just had a sandwich. We would have the planned tacos for lunch today as I tend to be hungry more at lunch. Then today, I just feel icky – didn’t want food. So DH went out in the cold to get himself food because he couldn’t handle another sandwich. And I was crying about it (and am tearing up now!). We haven’t had a normal meal for dinner in weeks! DH only got real meals when we were in Hing kong because we were with his family – I just sat there and didn’t eat! I know I can’t control how I feel or if I want food. But I hate that this is messing up DH too. I’m sick of feeling gross. I want to be hungry and eat at normal times again. I want DH to get real food once a day and not have to live on sandwiches.
Land now that I’m a few days away from my next OB appointment I’m freaking out that something wil be wrong. I’m petrified that we’ll go and be told its a MMC. I have no reason to think anything is wrong – still have a ton of symptoms, no bleeding or spotting at all, saw the heartbeat at my last appointment (which was 7w3d). But I know that none of that means anything with a MMC. I’m avoiding telling people because I worry that when I go on Friday, it will all be over.
Usually, I handle my worry pretty well and feel pretty optimistic. But today it’s just getting to me.
I just want to feel like myself again.
I am sorry you are worried, you aren’t alone. Just keep focusing on the fact that in a few days you get to “see” your baby again. And all those icky feelings that you are upset about, those are just signs that your baby is growing and developing as planned. Embrace the gross, the nausea, the tweaks of pain and the tired. Every day I pray for these things as they are reminders that I am indeed growing someone inside me and that things are moving along. Praying for a wonderful and perfect appointment full of joy and good news!
Okay ladies I got to see my baby yesterday and I cried on the way home. I had to go in for a preggo specific flu shot which I guess needs an order from the OB. While I was there I was mentioning to her my anxiety about the pregnancy and how I am just worried that something has or will go wrong. Her response was “well while you are here let’s check things out.” Brilliant!
I saw my baby and it looked like a baby. Stubby arms, feet, big head, saw the spinal column, the heart beat and yolk sack all there and obvious as can be. During the appointment I was in awe but as I drove home I broke down. I am a mom. I am growing a baby inside…right…now. I am no longer carrying a kidney bean I am carrying a baby. I handed the picture to DH when I got home and he was overwhelmed.
The baby measured at 9 weeks so I am back to my original timeline before the first appointment. Going to keep the due date of 8/14 but I am likely to deliver earlier. In other words the baby is thriving and growing. My next appointment is 1/24 and I cannot wait. 🙂
I’m sorry you’re having anxiety before your next appointment. All I can say is I know how you feel and I wish you as much peace as possible during the scary first trimester.
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