- 6 years ago
- Wedding: October 2018 - Stone Rows Farm
So let me just start this off by telling you a bit about myself and my Fiance. We are both 27 years old and have been dating since were 20. My Fiance has always said he saw kids in our life, but i never knew he planned on it being so soon. I am a sensitive soul but hard to reach it. I like kids and all. And i even adore some of them.. But im telling u right now.. When my Fiance told me one night amoungst our group of friends, that once we got married he was ready to start having kids, I’m almost died right then and there. I never thought i would have kids. I mean.. I guess thats a lie.. I guess i was one of those girls that said I”M NEVER HAVING KIDS.. but in the back of my mind, i guess i kinda thought that some day i would bc thats how life goes… And im telling you right now.. This is scaring the living crap out of me!!! I’m not even married y et, and i cant stoip thinking about those words that so easily flew out of his mouth! “Oh yeah Kim and I are gonna start having babies as soon as we get married” WHAT?!?!?!?! Listen, i good with kids.. I really really good with kids.. But they scare the bejesus out of me! What if I get preggers and i dont want to be anymore, or what if i have the kid, and i feel nothing for her or him… What if its to much for me to handle? What if we have a kid, and my whole life is ruined bc i’m going to be strapped to this kid for the next 18 or more years?!?! AHHHHHHH Please help me!!!Are these normal thoughts?