- 4 years ago
- Wedding: January 2013
So updates first. Dear daughter is making progress with her therapy and the family is as well. Dear Daughters mother is coming to visit in a very controlled setting. Her boyfriend is not allowed to come.
DH’s ex wife is actually communicating with the therapist as to how best conduct a visit. So all is calm for the moment. Now my problem.
I was married for a decade to a man who nearly killed me. I suffered horrible physical abuse. All said and done, he broke ten of my bones, lacerated my kidney and liver, broke a rib that punctured a lung and numerous other injuries. After my divorce I and my kids went to therapy. Eventually I became a volunteer and speaker at my local battered womens shelter. My kids were very small and even know they barely remember anything. After five years single I married my DH. He is an amazing attentive husband. He is always considerate and has never even raised his voice to me…funny because years ago he was a drill sergeant.
About six months ago I stopped sleeping good. I would wake up every hour on the hour, take 15 minutes to go back to sleep, and then wake up in the morning exhausted.
DH bought me a new bed thinking that because of my hip injury from Iraq that I was maybe in pain. So he and I picked out one of those memory foam beds. Its called the cloud and it feels like sleeping on a cloud its awesome. However the nightmares have began again.
The dreams are always about my ex husband. Violent violent dreams. Sometimes its reliving something he did to me, and other nightmares its a fresh hell. I dream he kills my DH and all the kids. Now im back to not sleeping.
I talked to the therapist about it. He said its stress but honestly im no more stressed than usual. Ex husband lives in another state and is no threat to me. I wake up screaming in the middle of the night thinking DH is dead and im married to the ex husband again.
I have tried meditation, yoga, I have tried positive thinking before bedtime and Im even keeping a dream journal. Its a horrific read.
Anyone else have this problem and is there any help. My doctor says take ambien. My fear is that I will be caught in the dream and cant get out of it.