- 4 years ago
Hi there, I’ve been wonderimg for a while now if I have anxiety. I feel like people are too quick to announce they have anxiety ocer trivial things and I have been hesitant to actually look into it as I feel like it dumbs it down for people who are actually suffering.
I have always been an anxious person but put it down to personality. I am very outgoing and chatty but say if I was going for a nightout I would get extreme nausea and nerves more just cos of the unknown I guess. I’d worry too and constantly have to reassure myself.
At the end of November I injured my ankle and have since had some very awful health issues, I have trouble getting about and have had to quit my job. I still go to college and study but thats all I do, I leave the house 3 days a week for about 15 hours in total for a week. I think this may have been when my symptoms started.
All my patience seemed to have gone, and I was irritable about everything. My poor SO must be sick of me. I’d go from being super snappy to totally guilty and needy and feeling awful that I snapped. Little issues such as having a tight month financially would set me off I’d feel like shouting and I would start crying and crying just from the stress of it. I am talking in past tense but these are still happening.
Going outside people make me feel very overwhelmed, some one knocked into me the last time I was out and I felt like crying/screaming as it gave me a fright.
I can’t concentrate anymore I have such a little attention span and thoughts spin and swim in my head. The littlest issue feels overwhelming.
The past 2 weeks I have a blinding headache in my temples like a band, I have searched and it says it can be a symptom of anxiety and this is what has got me thinking.
I am having trouble sleeping I often don’t sleep til 5am ( i mean its 3.45am hear now as I am writing this ) and when I do sleep I can sleep for 15+ hours and also nap. I have zero motivation and am just having trouble day to day.
I have tried doing things that make me feel good like having a nice shower, pampering and small walks but these make me feel good for such a short amount of time. My health worries are freaking me out and just generally fed up of my rut I am in.
I also since not having much contact with people have started to feel very ignored and it has affected me more than I thought. When I quit my job not one person messaged me saying oh shame you left or asked how my ankle was ( i injured it at work ) and normally I don’t care but I have gotten very upset more than once about this. I feel very invisible.
Has anyone got past experiences of similar ruts like this? Any advice etc