Thank you everyone SO much for your amazing advice and encouragement. Its really brightened my mood and given me hope!
@This Time Round: You’re so right. I know that I’ve been presented with this opportunity because it will do a lot for my self-confidence. It already has… I just need to allow this to happen and see the wonders it will work. Being prepared is very helpful, sometimes I get so overwhelmed from anxiety that I forget. But I’ll remember to do that. =)
@twitterpated0315: Your poor FI! That’s terrible. I’m glad that he’s gradually getting better and I hope that I will as well. =)
@AlwaysSunny: That’s a good idea! I did have another yoga teacher that I know tell me that if I wanted I could help her teach some classes for practice. She teaches about 40min. away from me, but I think it would be worth it for just a couple of classes!
@GIJen: This is a good idea too! I definitely would have some friends who would be happy to help. They’re the ones who keep asking me when I’m going to start teaching because they want to come to my class! Haha. I’ll have to do that.
@dayl20: I’m that person in classes too. I never speak because I figure that people will just be judging every word that comes out of my mouth! You’re right though that I just have to force myself. I’m really going to try, because I know that it will be helpful for my self-confidence just like your situation. I just need to get through the first couple of classes… haha.
@curlymeg: I’m so afraid to teach people my age or even a little bit older like you and dayl20 have done. I think if I were teaching little kids I would be a little less nervous – but I still worry. The teaching persona is really good advice. I always look at those teachers who seem so enthusiastic and worry-free and I’m envious! Haha, I never would think that they were putting a lot of effort into that…I just assumed that they were some of the lucky people who don’t really worry about what other people are thinking about them. But its helpful to know that teaching personas are common. Maybe one day I can be one of those people too! I’ll definitely make sure that I teach exercises that I like and am familiar with to start with. I think that will be helpful. =)
@Jabberwocky: That’s so scary! I definitely have had more than a week to mentally prepare… so I consider myself lucky! Haha.
@KoiKove: Ooh, that’s a great idea! I’ll have to remember to do that with everything. That really is a fear of mine – the scenario you described. When I work through it though, it really doesn’t seem all that bad. I don’t think anything that bad would really come out of it. Definitely more helpful than dwelling on the fear. Thanks!
@mjwyatt84: Thank you! I will practice… and good luck to you! Sounds very overwhelming!
@AB Bride: Good idea! I will definitely do this. =)
@lolot: Very reassuring, thank you. Sometimes I think that I’m the only person that gets so nervous, but I’m glad that I’m not. I just have to keep reminding myself that my anxiety will get better…
@Sunflower–girl: You’re right, they’re paying so they must believe in you! That’s interesting too about your program. For my program, after we completed the 200 hours we have to do some extra work… community service, early morning sadhanas, taking yoga classes to observe other teaching methods. So we have a year to do that stuff, but I have really put it off!
@canarydiamond: I think that your first paragraph is going to have to become a “positive affirmation” practice for me every day, haha. That’s great… I just need to keep telling myself everything you just said. I’ll also have to remember that I won’t be perfect right away. Bothers me, but its the reality and I need to accept it and not get down on myself! =)
@alyssaC: Thank you! =) I’ll try to remember that.
@Mars62312: You’re so right. This is part of a new thing I’m trying to do where I just really want to stop letting fear hold me back. It really has held me back from so many things in life and its left me feeling kind of depressed! I can’t do this to myself anymore. Thank you!
Again, thanks everyone!!! You all had awesome advice!!