- 5 years ago
- Wedding: December 2014
Let’s see….last January, my Mom lost her battle with breast cancer. I was her caregiver and my family pretty much was non existant after that.
Enter some mild depression.
And then? In August, my co-teacher(I’m a preschool teacher)was involved in a near fatal car accident on her way to work. Another loss….. some more depression.
And then??? For some reason, my co-workers decided that it would be a good idea to pretty much bully me. Yup. And during this time is when the severe depression set in. (no worries~I have sought help and am getting it~~~but this is still too much!)
There is ignoring. Like right to my face. My personal property goes missing. People making things up and my boss talking to me about them(even though they are ridiculous claims) And my boss???? She is no better(so I can’t talk to her) She sent me to the WRONG PLACE for a workshop that everyone else went to. And I texted her. And why was nobody concerned as to where I was? Because they knew I was at the wrong place! And the next day, she said she never got it(of course, she never asked me where I was either~~because she knew) I showed it to her in my outbox(and that it was opened) and her response? “Whatever” Really?!?!?! I wanted to rip her eyes out and shove them up her nose! But I walked away and said, “well, I’m sorry that you sent sent me to the wrong place”
There is some major politics going on where I work. But I did talk to one of our board members about things. Just so there would be a record of what is happening. I also started looking for a new job(and pretty much have a choice of two~but both don’t start until June)
So, I am alone in my classroom. No support. I am planning a wedding and am emotional because I will not have my Mom or Dad there. My brothers were all about the money and once they got it~they disappeared. I havne’t spoken to them in over a year. I miss my Dad because he always knew what to say and what to do…
These people I work with picked on the vulnerable one. And I can’t take it anymore. It is the most hostile, toxic place I have ever worked at. I am seriously considering seeing if I can go on short term disability until I can leave. Because honestly, I just can’t take it anymore. I have never done anything to them! (previously, they had ganged up on someone else, who would coming crying to me because I wouldn’t join in…..and now, sadly~she is one of them) The strange and very disturbing thing is that it all started the day after my co-teacher was in the accident. And it’s been over 6 months! I have tried to ignore what they are doing…but I can’t do it anymore.
The bullies win….and their mob mentality. Nice. And these are the people teaching our future…….very sad.
I guess I just needed to get that all out. I am just feeling stuck. I have been at my job for 9 years! And I love my kids….and how fair is it to leave them without a teacher? I feel guilty thinking about leaving them….but I have to. I have no choice…..