- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
It’s been a tough week for me when it comes to all things baby related.
Amongst other things that don’t concern me directly my Darling Husband and I got caught up in a moment of f-the- protection passion and by the morning we were both feeling that it was a bit risky to ignore the possibility of getting pregnant so I took the morning after pill.
We had a conversation about it and I said a bit of me thinks we’re not ready- mostly in a financial sense – but also a bit of me wonders what exactly we are waiting for?
Darling Husband said that with his new job only just starting he needs time to establish himself, which I do agree with, and we always said that we’d have one last summer enjoying the freedom of just the 2 of us, before we start ttc. We’re looking at 6 months from now, which would be September-ish time.
The trouble is, I’m finding it harder and harder to ignore my natural feelings of being ready to start a family. My desire to ttc is starting to overrule justifying why we are waiting.
I know there is no “perfect time” and the reasons we are waiting are sensible and are ultimately for the benefit of our future family anyway, but it’s SO hard. I feel like I can’t enjoy now, I can’t relax because I just feel like I’m waiting till September comes alongs.
I really do know there are some wonderful perks to being child free I really do, and I guess that’s why I’m posting bees, write me a pre-baby bucket list, simple things, funny things, serious things, I welcome them all!