- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2017
I am not so much in the waiting bunch but I figured this would the area that people could appreciate my excitement the most. I don’t know if ill ever truly be waiting but given the nature of this kind of progress this category just made sense 🙂 bear with me!
so the one “wall” that has been standing between me and my SO is that he is from ny originally. He moved here a few years ago for work and met me along the way. He has always (from the day I met him) let me know that he would eventually like to move home. This always scared the crap out of me becuase I have a son and a job that literally requires me to live here in chicago. NY just would be a very very very hard thing for me to consider. For him though I let the thought cross my mind every now and then because I just could not deal with the idea of us not being together. Its been a very rough road, especially with this hanging over our head. It made it hard to plan for the future and for us to really keep progressing to the next level. Due to recent events we were forced to really evaluate our relationship and to figure out even hypothetically what we would and would not be willing to sacrifice or do for “us”. I decided after much thought and reflection that I could not responsibly as a parent move my son to NY. I decided that as much as I loved him, I love my son more obviously. His stability is here in chicago and so is mine to be honest. It hurt very much but I was honest with my SO. we split up.
About a week later (we had still been texting back and forth because neither of us was happy about the situation) he called and said “ok something snapped in my head and I realized that as much as I miss my hometown and my family that even if I were to go home tomorrow it would not make me happy because I would not have you. You are my home now and if that means I call chicago home from now on than thats what it means. Please be with me because I cannot imagine life without you.” Im not much of a crier when it comes to happy tears. But, I cried. Its a huge weight off of my shoulders and now the future just seems so much brighter with so many more options and possiblities for us. It gave me that “solid” feeling I have been longing for with him. I finaly feel like those feelings I had in the very beginning that I somehow knew he was my person were right on. I doubted it for a while and thought I was just being nuts because with all the obstacles in the way of us having a real future I just didnt see how it would work out in the long run. But somehow, some way, here we are and I do not believe I have ever been happier in my life. He is my best friend and so much more. I truley believe if something is meant to be it will be no matter what is standing in the way and this just proves that my faith in my instincts and in this situation in particular have been well worth it. Im really just needing to share this with someone because I feel like I might burst from happiness. So thanks for reading!!!!!