I love my body.
My body is my vehicle to exist. If I didn’t have this body, I wouldn’t be here, at least not in my current context. When I think of it that way, I don’t think I could ever actively dislike my body for that reason alone. My body is my team mate for life. We are in this together, until the very end.
I think one of the reasons I love my body so much is that I started out with so many mood and mental disorders.
I experienced so much childhood trauma. I developed c-PTSD. I started memory suppressing at age 3, and my panic attacks started when I was 4. I modeled my behavior, from a very young age, on a bi-polar mother.
In my teen years, I became depressed and started self-harming.
And my body saved me from all that. I learned about what exercise can do for mood disorders. I got myself onto the cross country running team in high school. Then I got myself into the gym in college. I reaped all the benefits of exercising, both active and passive, and have been addicted ever since.
I feel very engaged with my physical body. I feel we are partners who are constantly building each other up and helping each other when times are tough.
Having said all that, I will acknowledge, I definitely benefit from thin privilege. And I’m sure it helps me to love my body when it is the definition of our current beauty standard.
I mean, I’m flat chested, I have short legs, and problem skin (can’t we ALL find something wrong if we look for it?) but I don’t focus on those things.
I focus on my flat tummy, how healthy and strong I am, how good my immune system is. And I try to focus on my inner qualities and derive my self esteem and confidence from them rather than external things that will eventually fade and/or fail.
And as PP have said, I always frame changes I want to make POSITIVELY.
So I’m not trying to lose 5 lbs right now because I hate my current body – but because I think I can look and feel even better than I currently do.
Also as PP have mentioned – don’t speak to yourself any worse than you would speak to a loved one. Well, what I’ve found helps IMMENSELY with that idea is to actually envision your body as a being separate from yourself.
I’m trying to transition to a more vegetarian diet, and that is certainly not for MY benefit, but for the benefit of my body, my teammate.
I’m not depriving myself of meat – I’m choosing better options that will give my body better health and immunity.