- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
So, I’m not going to post photos. not becasue I’m ashamed or anything like that- but becasue the photographer wanted to use my photos on her blog and seems pretty excited about it. I signed the release and want nothing more to do with the whole thing. I don’t want to give her a bad review.
It went like I feared it would.
I just wanted to add that if you are thinking about boudior as a self esteem booster- beware. It might not be.
The first pictures on the screen when i walked in were of my feet and me reaching up my legs. I was bent over and touching my legs. You could clearly see my stomach in the photos- full on strech marks.My thighs were rolling over my stockings.
Many of the photos that had my stomach in them were covered in strech marks-just like i feared.
My arms were another issue. I told her how I’m self consious of them (they hang kind of low from baggy skin and streach marks). Well I guess that went in one ear and out the other- my arms were up and my bat wings were flying around. Flap Flap.
She took a lot of “wedding” type shots that didn’t even have me in them. My bouquet, my veil alone, my shoes. I’m guessing she wants to use those for her promo stuff. Whatever.
She also kept putting my veil on backwards. I have the bottom of it piled on my head and to me it just looks akward.
Double chin in many of the photos. I don’t have one irl, but in her photos- Yes I DO!
It was tough sorting through the 50+ photos to find 10 for my book. (included in my package) I hated many of them. I only liked one- of my face only with my veil the right way. That’s something my wedding photographer will get thought.
She was getting a bit annoyed and asked me point blank what I didn’t like about them. I was trying to be super nice and not let her know I hated them- but I’m pretty sure she got the hint. She picked a picture at random and asked what I hated about it. So I told her.
1. I have a double chin in that picture
2. My arms are buldging out and you can see the celulite on them
3. my veil is piled on my head upside down
4. you can see my large birthmark
5. I’m lieing down and my veil is falling into the ‘fold’ in my stomach created by the extra skin I have.
5. Streach marks
She then told me all of that could be taken care of with photoshop, but also said “I’ve photoshoped ladies to look 100 pounds thinnner and that’s just not them. You have to just love who you are”
I’m 5″10 and 170 pounds. I’m no model but I’m a size 10. I was utterly offended and thanked her but didn’t want to have her photoshop any of my issues away. I’m pretty sure it would have been an extra cost anyway.
She asked me if she could use the photos in her promo work. I agreed and signed the waiver. I think I should mention this was a groupon deal for only $90. WIth that I get a professional wallet-sized flush mount book. I felt a bit guilty for not upgrading. I’m sure she lost money.
I did this becasue I have real issues with photography and my body. I just wanted to feel glamourus and sexy before the wedding. I hate pictures of myself and really wanted a self esteem boost. This failed epicly.
I think the worst park is that my own photos are the only ones I’ve seen of hers that I’ve hated. Every other photo I’ve seen is amazing. Skinny girls, Big girls and everything in between. So now I feel like it really is just me. I just have an ugly face and body that doesn’t photograph well.
I should have listened to myself and worn things that hide my flaws instead of trusting my photographer to hide them for me like we talked about. I can’t help but feel like it was all my fault somehow