- 8 years ago
- Wedding: June 2010
It doesn’t matter if you believe in soul mates, but it seems like everyone comes across a love where you feel like all those walls and doubts have been conquered. Hopefully you marry that person, I know I did. It’s been over six months since I did but doubts I can’t seem to ignore keep me afraid of waking up alone.
Sometimes I do this, I wake up in the middle of the night and I force myself into the reality of the situation. (I am a reality avoider) But reality has become quite lovely since he’s there. I’m not alone anymore, he’s here. He’s always gonna be here.
We never dated before we got married. Although he pursued me. We were best friends in the basement jamming out to classic 60s music and modern rock. I didn’t really date, I figured I would save it for later. Still I realized after reading through old journals I was terrified of abandonment. When he guessed that this was the source of all these walls and distance, he did the only thing that would convinced me otherwise. He asked me to marry him, telling me I wouldn’t ever have to face this world alone.
So I bought a dress and we eloped 5 days later.
Sometimes I wonder if he would leave me, it seems its in my nature to doubt this. But deep down I know he’s here for good. We aren’t going to simply make it through, we’re going to make this life an exciting adventure that will last til we’re old and gray.
Anyone else marry their best friend? Anyone else break through these challenges and feel more confident than ever?