Post # 1
I am finally going to attempt writing my birth story. Due to computer issues, I am going to write it over several posts on this thread. My computer tends to freeze and snap off on its own and I don’t want to lose it.
Tuesday, April 10th, I said to my sister “I am tired of random contractions and not knowing what is going on! I just want my water to break so I have a sure sign!!”
Well…fast forward about 6 hours. It was 3 AM and I woke up to the thought of “hmm..I am peeing….but I am not peeing…” I realized what was going on and woke up my husband (J). He jumped out of bed!! I called the on call doctor and my mom, then hopped in the shower. There was SO MUCH coming out! I actually made J smell it to make sure I wasn’t just peeing!! Poor guy!!
My bag was packed already, so we just had a few things to last minute add. We then got the dogs’ prepared for camp. My mom was going to bring them later that morning. By 4:30 we were on our way. I had no pain at all.
I get there, get changed, and they swab me to make sure my water did break. It did! They take some blood, hook me up to the IV (I had group B strep) and the monitor. I am having very minimal contractions and no pain still. At about 7:30 they let me have a full breakfast, which was AWESOME.
It was around this point that I found out my own doctor had that next shift and would be there for 24 hours! I was so relieved knowing she would deliver my baby!!
Still having very minor contractions until the afternoon. They decide it is Pitocin time and I freak the F out. I had heard so many horror stories about Pitocin! The nurse assures me I will be closely monitored and that since my water had broken, we had limited time.
I also took a big poop around this time, which made me so happy since I knew I was nice and empty for pushing time! 🙂
So the pitocin gets started…..
Post # 3
So by this time I am hungry again but only allowed popsicles and ice chips. All I could think about was food! This was the case for almost the entire rest of my labor. They reassured me over and over that I could have a turkey sandwich as soon as I gave birth. Yea! Two things to look forward to!
So the pitocin kicks in and some pain starts. My plan was to see how the pain was before deciding on the epi. I figured I would end up having one, but wanted to delay as long as possible. I should add that I was about 2 cm when I got to the hospital, and I was not checked until Pitocin time when I was 3.
The monitor had a particular screen that allowed the nurses to see the readings from all the monitors on the floor. I looked at all the huge contractions everyone was having and asked the doctor “so then why is it so quiet on the floor??” He said “they are all epi-ed!” At that point I knew I would be getting one when the time came!!!
Contractions get closer and the pain gets worse. At this point I said no epidural yet. They gave me Nubain. As soon as it kicked in I had the thought “aaaahhhhhhh…so this is why people do drugs!!” This relieved the pain for the next hour and a half or so…
Post # 4
Then the pain gets worse….I BEG for more Nubain but it is too early. They ask if I want the epidural. I was only 4 cm so I told them I would try to wait it out. About 30 seconds later, the next contraction starts and I scream “I WANT THE EPIDURAL!” So they call the guy in.
I was PETRIFIED of the epidural, but due to the fact that I had to focus so hard on keeping still, it really was not bad at all. More scary than painful, really. I had two contractions while he was putting it in, so my focus was on breathing and staying still. Once it kicked in, ALL PAIN STOPPED! It was amazing beyond belief. Seriously. I then napped on and off. It was funny because the nurses kept telling me to nap, but then kept coming in and disturbing me!
This is where it starts to get blurry for a while….
At one point my blood pressure was way low and they had me on oxygen for a short time. They also had to give me ephedrine. I thought it was something they were going to add to the IV and I freaked out completely when I found out he was about to shoot it into my leg. Well duh, I had an epidural! I obviously didn’t feel a thing! But I felt like an idiot for freaking out!
At another point, the epidural was wearing off and the contractions were coming fast and furious. I asked if they could turn it up. The nurse (new shift) comes in and says “Oh my gosh, why is your Pitocin turned up so high???” Yup, it was way too high! So they turn down the Pitocin and up the pain relief. Aaahhhhh….back to resting….
Post # 5
By this point, it is about 8 pm or so. The doctor says she expects the baby to make an appearance after midnight. She wants me to labor down comfortably. I was 9 cm and my cervix had a little more thinning out to do. I am told that I should speak up when the contractions get worse or when I feel pressure.
A bit later (9:30 maybe?) the contractions get worse. They don’t want to give me too much medicine because they want me to feel the pressure when the time comes to push. They explain that the epidural is made up of two different medications and they are adding more of one. I didn’t care for the explanation. I just wanted to go back to la la land.
Again, this part is blurry so the details may be off…
Post # 6
11:30 comes and it is time to start practicing some pushing. Contractions hurt pretty bad but are manageable. I start worrying about feeling the “ring of fire” but they assure me the epi is at the right level to feel pressure and know when to push. I push like a pro! I got the hang of it right away.
At this point a nurse walks in and asks if a male paramedic student can watch the delivery. Um, hells no. I politely say I am not comfortable with it. The nurse stands in the doorway scowling at me! I start apologizing. My nurse basically gives her a “get the f out” look and she leaves. I am all upset and feeling guilty. My nurse tells me to forget it happened.
At this point the trembling began. It was intense, uncontrollable shaking. I was also very nauseous but did not throw up.
Contractions got worse, and oh my Godddd the pressure!!! My doctor came in and started setting up. I was nervous!!
Pushing was intense. It made contractions seem like a walk in the park. They tell you that you will feel pressure, not pain. They lie! It was by far the worst pain I have ever had and ever could have imagined. I really thought I would not be able to handle another second. Oh yea, and keep in mind this was with an epidural!!!
Post # 7
So they kept telling me the head was “right there!” I was begging for more pain relief (which they couldn’t give me) and a c-section (which they obviously couldn’t give me either!). I kept asking “how many more pushes do you think it will take?” And they (nurse and doctor) would answer “could be any one of these now!”
Well…I felt her come out for sure. But oddly it didn’t hurt. I could just kind of feel something huge coming out. Hard to explain. I just felt so much relief that it was OVER. The cord was around her neck twice, so her cries were not strong at first. They took care of her and cleaned both of us up. I ended up with a 2nd degree episiotomy. Not too bad.
She was 6 lbs 9 oz., 19.5 inches. She was born on her due date at 1 AM.
I am exhausted and will quickly explain the rest…
Turns out I did some pretty serious damage to my body. I separated my pelvis! Here, at 7 weeks later, I am walking with a cane. It took weeks for me to be able to walk at all. It was unexpected and totally rare. I still have my hospital bed in my living room, and sometimes I am sore enough to still need my wheelchair. Again, this was discovered later that day. I could not walk immediately after delivery, and the nurse kept telling me it was just a pulled muscle and I need to “walk it out.” I insisted something was wrong, and they sent me to x-ray. Sure enough I was right. I don’t blame the nurse for thinking it was a pulled muscle though, since my physical therapist told me that this is extremely rare and ussually only happens with big babies. Mine was tiny! My pelvis was just tinier apparently. Because of this, I need a c-section next time.
And for the record, the hoo-ha does heal back to normal. I have had very little pain and minimal bleeding. The first poop, however, is a story far too horrific to even post.
Breastfeeding was initially very painful because she was born with a tongue tie. We have since had it clipped and she is doing much better. I did have to eliminate all milk and soy from my diet because she has tummy troubles. You would be surprised just how many foods have milk and soy in them! I can’t even have “non-dairy” creamer! But I am making it work. But man, breastfeeding hurts terribly at first. Nipple shields work wonders!
That about sums it up! If I left anything out, feel free to ask!
Post # 8
Amazing story, thank you for being honest and sharing 🙂
Post # 9
Thanks for sharing – and what a beautiful baby Briar is!
How funny about the ephedrine shot in your leg! 🙂
Post # 10
She’s adorable! That’s crazy about your pelvis, but I’m glad you’re getting better! Congratulations!
Post # 11
Wow!! Separated pelivis, i havent event heard of this before. Thank you so much for sharing! What a beautiful little girl!
Post # 12
Slightly scared to TTC now hehe but she is gorgeous and I can see why it is totally worth it. Congrats!
Post # 13
love her name! what does it mean “she was born with a tongue tie”?
Post # 14
What a beautiful little girl you have, youre story was awesome, thank you for sharing but may I ask about what the “ring of fire” is and i hate to ask and am not even sure that your comfortable sharing… about your first poop? sorry, that was even a tad embarrassing for me to ask…
Post # 15
She is so cute! I can’t believe you separated your pelvis, ouch!
Post # 16
@Pappy8: The ring of fire is when you are crowning, meaning the head is starting to come out.