- 8 years ago
- Wedding: March 2011
I need serious help from you girls. I have no interest or desire to continue to plan wedding. In fact it has become a trigger for anxiety and sadness! I’m getting married in Aruba in 3 months and have Given over a years notice.Recently ALL of my friends have either backed out entirely or are debating on going at all. Lately I’ve been depressed and cannot even think about the wedding enthusiastically. My family consists of my brother and mother. There will be over forty guests and only 3 will be mine. I feel like I’m planning a party for someone else. I’m so sad disappointed and overwhelmed with emotion that I won’t have any supporters there for me on my wedding day. There will be times I want to turn to a friend and I won’t have one. The worst part is that all this time they were all on board to come and be my wedding party…. Now I have no wedding party. But we have asked his friends and family to be groomsmen already and they are all attending and excited. I don’t know what to do. I’m even so humiliated that I’m going to have to cancel having a party due to nobody cares enough about me to attend! Even 3 of my friends I have talked to on a everyday basis since grammar school! I have no idea what I did to deserve this. I have always gone outta my way for all of them. And have even offered to pay for their airfare. Still nobody will commit to go. One will be 6 months pregnant and the other 2 say they cannot afford it. But without getting to much into it… Nobody will ever get to Aruba cheaper than what I’ve made it for them. Sorry to say that I’m not looking forward to my own wedding. The only silver lining is that I’m marrying my best friend and couldn’t ask for something more in a partner. I guess that’s the most important. But for some reason doesn’t help me be less disappointed or sad. How can I feel good about this? Wedding day without people you care about! I should’ve eloped.