- 8 years ago
This is definitely a topic you hope to never talk about, but i think everything happens for a reason. I had been dating my ex-fiance for 7 months before he had purposed to me. He purposed to me on july 4th in the most perfect way, with the most elegant stunning ring. I was officially engaged to the most attractive, amazing guy on this planet and i was SO happy, or so i thought. I started planning the wedding and everything was working out perfectly, i found the perfect dress, the perfect venue, invitaions, bridesmaids and dresses, flowers, you name it. but i realized everything was perfect except our relationship. His was controlling attribute was sticking out more, his temper started to show through more. His true colors were finally really showing through after we were less than a month away from getting married. i thought i knew him. it was all becoming too much. i had seen this in him before but thought we could work it out. because thats what you do when your in love right? i suddenly began realizing that there was less then 6 weeks until the wedding and i wasnt happy anymore. i was truly so unhappy, even though i loved him, i started to realize he wasnt the one for me. finally after a week of him arguing about everything i would do, i told him i wasnt sure if we were meant for eachother anymore. i told him i would think about things for a week and get back to him on how i was feeling, that whole week i had extreme anxiety, couldnt sleep and my heart was just so heavy. i was about to ignore it and just go along with the wedding but the sunday i was supposed to give him an answer ( it was also my birthday) he decided to start up another argument and didnt even wish me happy birthday. it hurt me beyond belief. i couldnt believe that someones pride would get in the way. i decided that it was right and i called things off.
this is so recent and i dont know what to think of it all anymore. i know im not the only one who has gone through this but its the hardest thing to do since i cant see the bigger picture. i dont really know what to do , or where to go from here or how to cope with things especially when he keeps calling and texting me telling me hes so sorry and that hes a changed man(which he says everytime) and that he loves me so much.
any advice would be deeply appreciated thank you