- 6 years ago
- Wedding: July 2012
My H2B has Cancer, and the reason we are getting married is we don’t know how long he has…it’s a now or never thing sadly.
After initial agreement to wed, his Cancer spread, and we had to put off to our current date. Then 2 months ago it spread to his brain, he survived the op, but he is very ill.
I am having to do most of this on my own, and it’s soooo hard. I want to cry, not because I’m sad over his illness, but because everyone expects me to have the answers, and I don’t.
My Fiancee is due to go in for Radiotherapy, but we had to cancel one appt, because I was rushed to hospital, and nobody haas got back to me, despite repeated phone calls. Now if he was to go in now, he would miss the wedding, he’d be very ill, and everything would be ruined (not that I care, but this is madness).
So he doesn’t want to go in now, so he won’t discuss his treatment, or contact the hospital.
He also needs further surgery, before the radiotherapy, but in a similar way, he won’t discuss it.
I’m sorry to rant but I am so fed up, everything seems to be my fault!
And I am soooo tired!
I know, better than anyone, how stupid it is to put the wedding first. But it’s a lot of money, and I need to work on that, there is so much going on, and trying to be responsible for him, my work which for many reasons is falling apart around my ears, and keeping the household together with only one of us working, and money going out.
He is capable of little else than sitting there complaining, again ot his fault, he’s in pain. But I could do with someone anyone to help.
I just needed to rant!