Your Age/Partner’s Age: 31/34
How long you have been together: 5 years
How long you have been TTC: 16 cycles
What was your journey to pregnancy for your first?: got knocked up the first month! I didn’t think it would happen that quickly
Unexplained or Explained Infertility: unexplained. I saw my gyn after a year of trying, and she suggested trying a few more months, because some of the months didn’t count since I was still breastfeeding. I gave it 6 more months and no dice. Had a full health check with my GP and all is well. This cycle, we are getting labs for me and SA for husband
How does TTC for this pregnancy feel, emotionally? Shitty. Just total devastation every month. Everyone is asking about a little sibling for the kid, friends are pregnant with (and have gone on to deliver) #2,3,4. I give a bye to those with #1, since we were so lucky the first time. I also feel a lot of guilt, like “shouldn’t I be happy that I already have one child? Is the kid not enough? Am I a shitty parent because I’m sending the message to the kid that I’m not satisfied with just him? Is it worth messing up the marriage sex life, because it’s sex on demand?” So much doubt.
Known Issues: none so far
Your TTC plans for the next few months: (fertility meds, supplements, OPKs, BBT charting, NTNP, etc) I did OPK one month, and ovulated later than I thought. If my labs come back abnormal, we will talk fertility meds
Just for fun – What trips do you have planned for 2016? (if you don’t have any planned, get on it! You deserve it!) we actually just got back from vacation! I’ll have to wait and see for the next one.
Anyone else feel weird and nonplussed by doing fertility treatments? How successful are they really? My insurance covers nada, and I don’t want to get stuck in a trap of what seems like a slot machine mentality. (I mean, I already am, but what we are doing right now is free…)