- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2015
So this is mostly a sad vent, if you have any words of wisdom or pick me ups that would be great.
I went to the doctor today and found out I had a chemical pregnancy. I feel really weird, I was pretty sure I wasn’t pregnant so it’s not like I got myself attached to the idea of being pregnant but I’m still so sad because it means something was there and I lost it. It also means at least another month of the emotiinal rollercoaster of trying. Plus Darling Husband is only going to be home for the weekends for the entire month, so luck definitely needs to be on our side to get timing right.
I’m trying to look at the positive by seeing that I can get pregnant, I’ve always had the irrational fear that I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant. Also maybe my body will be a little more ready next time. And this was only our second month so at least I’m not to run down yet. Last I’m so happy I wasn’t farther along and didn’t let my hopes and excitement get high, that would have been really awful. It’s just hard to keep the positive thoughts at the front of my mind.
Anyways thanks for letting me get it all out, I’m trying not to bog Darling Husband down too much, I know he’s sad too and I don’t want to talk it to death with him. I guess thats what the bee is for!