- 5 years ago
Me and my boyfriend have been together now for almost 3 years. We both knew from day 1 that it was meant to be, but all this time later I’m still waiting for a proposal and it’s really starting to get me down. I know that he wants to propose, and that he has been planning to do so for a while now – since at least Summer 2011. I know this because I’ve overheard conversations about it and had some very close friends of ours asking me quite often ‘Has he not done it yet?’, etc.
Before Christmas just gone, we were out shopping and at every jewelers window he slowed down to look at the rings. As you can imagine this really got my hopes up, and when Christmas Day came and went with no proposal I was so upset – not to say I was ungrateful for the gifts that he got me, but I’m sure some of you know that sinking feeling.
On Christmas Day itself, I was sat beside him when he got a text saying ‘Well, did you do it yet?! :)’. He acted nervous and replied back ‘Was that meant for me?’. He said that he didn’t know what they were talking about, and that they meant to send it to someone else. Then came another reply saying, ‘Yeah. You know.. what we were talking about the other day.’ I didn’t ask any questions and just went along with his explanation, so as not to scare him.
Coming up to my birthday, he kept saying how ‘it has to be something really special this year’. So again, I got my hopes up only to be let down.
It really got me thinking about why he hasn’t done it yet. If he’s waiting for the right moment, fair enough – but in the last 5 months big events like Christmas, New Year, Valentine’s Day, me passing my driving test and my birthday have all come and gone with no ring, and it really upsets me. A while back, he did something that really got to me too – he picked out a Haribo ‘ring’, got down on one knee and started laughing. I laughed with him, but inside I was dying!
I don’t know if I’m overreacting, but I want this to happen more than anything – sometimes it’s all I can think about, even down to planning the big day. We’ve never really sat down and talked about it, but we both know that we want it. I don’t think I can go too much longer without saying anything as it’s eating me up inside, but I really don’t want to spoil it for him. Thank you for reading, I just needed to share this and get it off my mind and also to get other people’s opinions on it.