- 5 years ago
- Wedding: April 2014
Fiance and I just spent Friday night through this morning (Monday) on vacation together. We don’t live together yet so we got to “play house” at this condo/apartment type place in Cape Cod. It had two bathrooms, a bedroom, a living room, and a full kitchen. We were able to wake up together, shower together, make meals together, watch movies/TV curled up on a couch together, sleep together, everything, together.
Now we’re back in reality where we don’t live together, we both still live at home, and apart. I’m completely bummed out because of it. We had a little taste of what it will be like when we can finally afford to move out and now it’s gone.
Some backstory… I go to school full-time with 17 credits this semester, trying to get an internship on top of it, with a child, and me and my son both live with my parents.
Fiance lives at home still too, but he’s on the hunt for a new job that will support him moving out. He just finished school for CADD (computer-aided drafting and design) and he’s been applying everywhere. But nothing has turned up from it, when he calls he doesn’t get good responses, and it’ been very discouraging.
I don’t want to ask him what he plans to do if CADD doesn’t work out because I don’t want to appear negative or that I don’t believe in him. I do believe in him. I just worry, what if?
I should finish school in about a year and will hopefully have my foot in the door of the organization I want to work for (YWCA) but it likely won’t pay top notch, which is somewhat not conducive to affording an apartment. I’m praying Fiance has a job that will mostly support us both so I can supplement with my pay.
how can we make this work? There’s not going to be a marriage without a place to live. I know I should just be patient but it’s very hard when we’re both inching ever closer to 30 and we both still live at home. I feel like such a loser.
I don’t know if this is a rant, a whine, or a cry for help/advice, but mostly I think I’m just looking for a shoulder to cry on :/