- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2015
First, let me say that I have posted before under a different name. The reason for the switch is that I recently discovered that someone I know very well utilizes these boards too. I need the annominity to feel comfortable posting on these forums.
I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I was initially diagnosed about 3-4 years ago. I have been reevaluated, and have been confirmed as still having Major Depressive Disorder (this past year). I have been working with many doctors and professionals to assuage my symptoms, and to resolve my disorder. It has been complicated. I also have Sleep Apnea, Anxiety (generalized), mingraines, tension headaches, frequent nausea and abdominal pain without a clear cause, a benign thyroid tumor, anemia, and frequent muscle pain (tender points) without a clear cause.
This all has impacted my day to day life, and has made me feel lathargic, useless, guilty, lazy, unproductive, distracted, and inferior to those who have a healthy-normal life. I am seeing a therapist, journaling, taking part in hobbies (possibly too many), using a CPAP, taking medication for pain, indigestion, lactose intolerance (lactase), depression (SSRI), volunteering, taking Vitamin D pills, Vitamin B 12 pills, and using a SAD lamp. I just can’t “snap out of it!” My doctor has recently switched me to Effexor, and I will begin the treatment as soon as the medicine arrives (mail-in pharmacy, through our insurance).
I am worried about its effectiveness, and about any possible withdrawal symptoms if and when I am ready to get off of it (I eventually want to have children).
I don’t know what else to do. I feel that my depression, hypersomnia and anxiety have had an overwhelming effect on my SO. Any advice on how to further cope with this so that I don’t continully negatively affect my relationship?
He supports me, and fully loves me, even on my worst days.