- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
So, some of you are familiar with me and my pregnancy woes.
In my first pregnancy, my first tri was pretty good. I had one bout of spotting that was nother serious. I had minimal morning sickness. By 24 weeks however, I was diagnosed with hydronephrosis of my right kidney and underwent multiple surgeries to place stents. Along with that, my baby was IUGR and stopped growing which led me to be induced early (at 38w 5d). That being said, my Dear Daughter was healthy (but VERY hungry due to the IUGR) when she was born and I now have a fantasticly joyful 2.5 year old. My kidneys also returned to normal! yay!
Now I am in my second pregnancy. Darling Husband and I discussed whether or not we’d have another baby for a LONG time. We were both hesitant since my first pregnancy was so difficult and quite scary at times. They could not guarentee that I wouldn’t have the same problems again.
This pregnancy I was plagued with awful morning sickess until 24w. I figured, hey, maybe it’ll be tough early on this time and I will be spared the kidney issues. Maybe this time I will have a “normal” pregnancy!
17 weeks the kidney pain started to rear it’s ugly head. It was confirmed that BOTH of my kidneys (it was only in one last time) are malfunctioning this time.
And last week (27 week appt), by doctor said she suspects baby is small again, and I have another growth scan to confirm that in the coming weeks.
I love being pregnant, but all these complications make me feel like I am doing something wrong. I feel like my body is failing me and my baby. I feel guilty that I can’t better provide for this active little munchkin who is currently doing somersaults in my womb. I just want to apologise to the poor little baby inside of me who isn’t getting what they need from my body 🙁
Most of the time, I feel really positive about my pregnancy, despite all the worries. I’m optomistic that I can avoid surgery this time, but on days like today when my kidneys are killing me, and I am worried about how small the baby is, I get overwhelmed!
Does anyone else have experience with pregnancy complications? How do you cope with the emotions? The worry? Tell me your positive stories. Tell me how you felt. How you dealt with it. Vent away so I can feel less alone in this!