- 6 years ago
Today has been one hell of a day! My only sister has booted me from her wedding as Maid/Matron of Honor and I feel like shit. We had a pretty big fight and I mean HUGE, my Dad has been pretty sick the past year and it looks like we’re in the final days of his life….I’ve been pretty pre occupied taking care of my mother and just being her rock…my sister just doesn’t seem to have time for this…
It’s as if wedding planning has caused her to forget who the hell she is, and I just lost it! I finally laid into her ass and didn’t hold back! For goodness sake my mother has been saying for weeks that she doesn’t think she even gives a damn..and I lost it. She starts yelling how “yes it is all about her” and “for once in her life she’s going to be selfish”…who is this monster? Then the next day I get a text message saying that she’s made a decision to not have me in her wedding….to be honest with you I don’t even think I give a shit about her wedding anymore. My mother called and said flat our to her that if I’m not in the wedding she isn’t going…my sister replied “I’m sending you an invitation, it’s your choice”. Seriously WHO IS THIS?
I said to her that we have a lifetime to figure out what we want our relationship to be as sisters, but she’d better starting working on the one with our mother NOW. My Mom is a person that says what she means. bottom line. done. I’m going to do everything in my power to make sure my Mom is there and I’m hoping time will be on all of our sides….but sadly as of now I don’t even know if I want to attend.
It has been without question in my mind that my sister would be my Maid/Matron of Honor, now I don’t even know if I know who she is anymore to even consider her a friend. She has said that she still wants me to attend (I was the only person in her bridal party), but not with a formal role. I’m really torn as to what to do/feel and here’s what’s rolling through my head…….
1.) Fuck you and your wedding! Our father is more important than this right now, be there like a daughter should be for her mother. The only other time in our lives that we will have to endure this is when it’s our husbands…..damnit just be there for Mom right now.
2.) I’ll be there to support you no matter what..through good and bad we’re sisters and not standing next to you that day won’t matter in 20 years…(in my head I think it still will)
3.) Wait until I get engaged, I’m going to have a huge wedding party and NOT even bother asking YOU to be apart of it. And every chance I get I’m going to make sure to rub it in your face how it’s all about me and I have the right to be selfish (Middle finger up!).
I honestly don’t want my family torn apart for this but my biggest fear is that I will truly end up hating my sister until I take my last breath…never forgiving her not for the Maid/Matron of Honor situation but by never stopping to think about the one person that has always thought first about us.
What are your thoughts? Hitting send, closing eyes, and hoping you guys don’t beat me up too bad…