- 2 years ago
I know this is not the most important thing in the world right now, but I think being locked up got me thinking unnecessarily (?) about my proposal that happened before all the corona started.
just a quick background- my boyfriend proposed to me on my birthday in early January. The proposal was completely unplanned, he didn’t have a ring, he hadn’t even planned to propose. We were very very drunk, as it was my birthday and we were at a party. When we got home, we were kissing and cuddling and he just asked ‘will you marry me, I can’t wait any longer’. As he was saying the words, I kind of though ‘oh god, i can’t believe he is proposing to me completely drunk, without a ring’, but I said yes. For months and months before this, he would occasionally saying ‘I can’t wait to marry you’, so I knew he would propose at some stage, but I am just so confused with my thoughts. One day I think I should feel lucky, that he was so excited to marry me that he just could not wait a minute longer. Then the next day I’m sad and angry that he just did not make ANY effort, and was completely pissed.
the next afternoon after this 3am drunk proposal, we went to a shopping centre and he bought me a ‘placeholder’ silver band, just so I knew he was being serious despite being drunk, and asked me if I wanted to choose style of my ‘real’ ring. He also said that he will need to save for a couple of months so that he can buy a diamond from a diamond dealer and have the ring designed for me.
then, a few weeks ago we visited his best friend and his wife. They never congratulated me on the proposal so I asked my fiancé (?) if he even told his friends, and he said no he hadn’t as it’s not official because I don’t have a proper ring. So is it official or is it not official? Am I engaged of am I not engaged?
another reason that upsets me is that I know that his ex wife got a romantic proposal, in a beautiful hotel in a suite, I know this sounds pathetic on my side. I guess I am just jealous that he made a proper effort to propose to her, and clearly planned the whole thing long in advance, while I got a drunk proposal without a ring.,it’s not the hotel suite I am jealous about, it’s the thought. I am getting angry that he kind of ‘robbed me’ of a ‘real’ proposal, and be assured I did not expect anything fancy, just a bunch of flowers, maybe a picnic, and an actual ring would be nice.
i know this might be crazy, and some might say well, do you want to be married or have the perfect proposal? I am looking for your opinions, so I can stop overthinking and move on.
now because of coronavirus, obviously my ring is not going to happen for another few months, which upsets me even more.
please, tell me what do you think about all this? All opinions appreciated.