- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2011
Hi bees… i just want someone to talk to… it might be long.
Since i met Darling Husband he’s had depression and ADD.
For the 3 years of college, he took fluoxetine and ritalin and he was fine, when we met he was fine and everything was ok. The first months of dating he would tell me that i shouldnt be with him because of his depression and some past issues, but we got past that and we were very happy… until the last 6 months from college, when he depeloped gastritis because of the meds he was taking plus the stress.
He quit both meds and 3 months after we gor married and he started to feel better, but the ADD and depression striked again, so he took them 3 days and the gastritis reappeared, he threw up bilis and he needed IV fluids.
Fast forward a 2 months ago, he started a special treatment that got rid of his gastritis completly and he wanted to start with the ritalin again because he felt awful that couldnt focus in anything and help me with stuff.
He’s now taking Ritalin for his ADD, but he’s still been feeling awful, it’s crisis after crisis, he says he feels trapped, that he can’t do anything because of this feeling that he’s always had, as if life was way too hard, despite that we have everything.
I feel guilty because those feeling reached their peek when i quit my job stupidly. He’s a yoga instructor and our parents are helping us all they can, we have everything we need… but i feel that if i hadn’t quit my job he wouldnt have that extra stress.
Today we had a… i dont even know how to call it… we were talking about the issue very calmly, but then i started feeling guilty (he wasnt telling me anything about the money or anything, just how he felt) and i got depressed and it started a vicious circle… everything got more calm for lunch time, but still i couldnt stop feeling guilty… he’s sleeping right now.
I told him that maybe he should start with the fluoxetine again and he will get better… but what if he doesnt?
I just want him to be happy, im normally very strong and i dont get this feelings… maybe it’s because im about to get my period…
Sorry for the long post, i just want some advice or kind words or something… 🙁 thank you bees