- 7 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
I’ve been a waitingbee on Weddingbee for 11 months today, I joined and posted my first post in June last year.
Before that I recall lurking on the boards before signing up so we’re at about the year mark since I became “vocal” about my waiting status.
If I’m honest, I didn’t think I’d still be a waiting bee after this long but I also admit that I’ve been “ready” for engagement since about 3 months in. I knew he was The One and since I realised that I effectively started waiting.
Given the things we’ve been through and the way our relationship has naturally developed, in hindsight I think if we’d got engaged sooner than now it wouldn’t have been the right time for us. As much as I want to be engaged to him, I’m grateful that a lot of things we’ve worked though together have happened before they could be overshadowed by what should will be a very happy time in both our lives.
I feel like I’ve run out of waiting patience. I’ve run out new ways to stop myself from thinking about it, I can’t think of any new witty or serious ways to asking why we are not engaged yet. and God knows it’s become a bit of a cracked record and frankly I’m sick of hear myself build up a conversation only to end up a bit teary and weepy at the end of said conversation!
I’ve stopped being so blase with my friends/family/work colleagues who ask when we’re getting married- I’m sharp and blunt about it “I dunno. When he’s ready I guess.”
I believe in the power of the universe- if you say how you feel and what you need and then let it go, what you desire will come back to you.
So here it is,
I’m ready in my heart and I know its right in my head. It’s time to say “yes“