- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2009
I am 33, have been TTC for 6 months with no luck. AF came today and I am devastated, angry, you name it. For a number of external reasons, it would have been so much easier had we gotten pregnant by now: Darling Husband will be changing jobs in 6 months and opening his own business. We will be losing awesome insurance, paternity leave, etc. and he will have a very hard time taking off. We had met our deductible, it would have been easier to take off maternity leave, etc. I splurged on really good disability insurance to help cover maternity leave, and each month I don’t get pregnant, I end up paying the $200 premium for nothing.
Darling Husband works 1.5 hours away, so we see each other on the weekends and usually once during the week. I chart, and consistently ovulate on day 15, but it is still hard to time getting together with the distance and work schedules. This month will be extremely hard with timing. My luteal phase is 11-12 days. I am at a healthy weight, don’t drink caffeine, alcohol, or smoke, exercise regularly, etc. I had the paragard for 1 year before TTC, and the mirena for 2.5 years before that. DH’s GP did an “unofficial sperm count,” said the number looked fine, wasn’t able to tell the quality due to microscope issues. He has no risk factors for infertility. I did accupuncture but had to stop because it gave me migraines.
I had my annual exam earlier this month, and my family doctor said there is nothing medical that indicates any problem other than stress and I have no risk factors for infertility. She said while I don’t meet criteria for testing for another 6 months, she gave me an order for some labs and a formal sperm analysis for Darling Husband and said we could get it anytime if we wanted, that way we wouldn’t have to come back later. (Insurance probably won’t pay for much of it)
I don’t know what to do. Part of me wants to take a break, but I know myself and if we do, I will be secretly hoping that will be the trick (have heard many people get pregnant after they stop trying). DH thinks we should do some basic testing, but part of me is too angry, that I shouldn’t have to do it. Part of me thinks that it just hasn’t happened due to a combination of bad luck and stress, and it will if we just keep trying. I feel like I can’t handle this disappointment all the time and stress over timing things.
Advice or encouragement GREATLY APPRECIATED!