- 5 years ago
- Wedding: December 2012
I have been working on a Post about all the things I loved about my wedding. But I have also been fighting with my Dear Husband a lot so I dont really feel like it.
And I was thinking I looked lovely in my wedding dress. But I would have looked nicer had I been thinner.
I have been dieting for a week. I will rephrase I have been dieting since I was 14 years old.
I have always always struggled with my weight. I have always had to work out like crazy or starve myself in order to keep a normal healthy weight. What does that mean anyway?
I have been at my fatest and still had better blood work than most people I know.
The first Time I went on a Diet given to me by a Nutricionist I was 14 years old. I decided I wanted to be skinny like my friends and I lost 8 Kilos 17.6 Pounds.
I am 5″2 so 17.6 Pounds is a lot on a small frame. 8 Kilos changed my life. I went from being size 10 to a size 2 sometimes even 0. I was Hot!!!!! I had a nice body thank you God and Mom s good genes. I managed to keep a good weight during highschool. With a fairly easy diet that allowed me to eat a lot of food and Pancakes !!!!
I took a year of after highschool before going to univeristy to travel and finding myself…I wasnt lost I just didnt want to go to school. I had never ever ever in my life been thinner. I could eat whatever I wanted drink and party and I woudnt gain a Pound why? I told myself that it was a good metabolism and that I was young and My body was finally normal. NO NO NO NO
I woke up at 6:30 go to our country club : I had a 1:30 minutes cardio work out mostly threadmill. Then I went back to the lockers to spend 20 minutes in the steam room and get a shower.
At 9:00 Am I would meet my brother at the restaurant were we would have a very healthy breakfast like Eggwhites omellette. Grilled cactus….Fruit Salad with a little cottage cheese. We would go to the pool to catch a little sun and at 10:30 I would say goodbye to go to my belly dance lessons. From 10:30 to 12:00 I would shake and move my hips That looked nicer than shakira s in her best movie video.
At 12:10 I went home I had to go up a lot of stairs the country club was build on a mountain.I went home and took a nap until 2:30 when My mom got home. We shared a Meal together the entire family. I would go out for a starbucks or something of the sort and by
6:00 I was at my pilates Reformer lesson ( it is on a machine and It is a lot harder than floor pilates). Sometimes I did 2 classes instead of one.
8:00 pm I was very hungry so I would have a large dinner.
I would also snack 2 times a day.
I wasnt thin because I had a finally achieved a good metabolism. I was thin because I was doing 3 hours of cardio a day and at least 1 hour of muscle….Silly me I got used to eating whatever I wanted…..
Then I went to college and I got sick. I have very strong asthma and I had a horrible lung infection that ended with me in the hospital. I couldnt work out for 2 months and the HORRORI had to take cortizon. It is a horrible medicine that makes you FAT. Not only you are hungry all the time, it also slows down your metabolism and your knees hurt so bad that forget about going on a thread mill.
So I went from a fit 100 pound girl to a Chubby cutie with a lot of stretch marks.
Since then it has been been Up down up down. I have gotten used to eating so much it is shameful. Husband and I laugh all the time when I tell him: When I eat popcorn I dont just eat popcorn I EAT POPCORN!!!!!!
So today I decided I am going to be thin again! My knees dont hurt anymore and if they do it is because I am overweight . I am not sick so I get to get healthy again slowly.
I am currently 2000 thousand pounds!!!! Seriously no but I do need to lose a lot weight.
I am going to extreme diet for the first 20 pounds just to get used to it and to get motivated because there is nothing worse than losing a pound a week when there are more than 30 to go. I just joined Ann Mcmillan Pilates and I will attend lessons from Monday to saturday.
I am exited!!!! lets Hope that by June I can fit into my size 4 jeans!!!! I will always be fat in my head. But at least for my late 20s and early 30s I will be thin and Fat girl from my head will be hidden.