(Closed) Diary of the Eternal Chubby Girl

posted 5 years ago in Wellness
Post # 3
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Helper bee
  • Wedding: October 2014

Good luck! I went from a size 20 to a size 2 now I’m a size 6/8. I’d love to lose weight again but my motivation is non-existent. Oh well.

Keep us updated on your progress!

Post # 4
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Sugar bee
  • Wedding: June 2013

Oh Honey…Don’t put so much emphasis on your weight. eat healthy and exercise to maintain good health. Your weight will reflect all your hard efforts!  congrats and good luck with your new lifestyle! A body in motion stays in motion. 

Post # 5
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Bumble Beekeeper
  • Wedding: July 2013 - UK

Oh G-d… when I saw the title of this post I was like “did I write this and not know it?”

I’ve only ever had a normal BMI (and I mean NORMAL, not under 18, or even under 20) when I was working out for 2 hours a day, and weighing my food.

I only have to look at a cake to gain 10 lb.

Even when I’ve been thin, I was always a thin girl with a fat girl inside, waiting to get out…

Let us know how you do… I’m considering fitness bootcamp in addition to my daily workouts at the moment. They promise that you will lose 1-2 dress sizes in 30 days… but I bet you have to suffer for it!

Post # 6
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Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: May 2011

I’m glad you’re getting back on track and excited about it… I feel like it’s extra-hard for us short girls to stay slim, when just a pound or two of weight gain makes you feel HUGE.  But at least it works the opposite way too. I was on cortizone shots for years and I know what you mean about them making you hungry and fat, it sucks.

One suggestion I have for you, besides obviously working out for an hour+ 5-6 days a week and eating lots of fruits and veggies and lean protein, is to get a scale that measures your body fat as well as your weight.  Weight training makes your muscles fill up with water, so a day after working out and eating healthy you may “weigh” more but actually have less lbs of body fat than before.  If you don’t have a body fat scale, another easy option is just to use measuring tape and set goals for measurements, rather than the scale.  Don’t get discouraged and try to get your husband involved too, i.e. no unhealthy food in the house, not going out to big dinners and drinks, etc.

Good luck and congrats on your new weight loss plan!  Keep us updated, I love to see fitness success stories.

Post # 7
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Helper bee
  • Wedding: July 2014

popcorn is my vice.  people tell you it’s a healthy snack, but when i eat it, it is in no way snack portion.  it is like “stuff face until this entire bucket is gone in 20 minutes.” i could literally eat myself into obesity if i gave myself free reign on popcorn.  i’m talking air-popped popcorn too, not the microwave stuff.

 

my weight bounces around a lot (no pun intended).  around christmastime i was a 12 and i had been working out and dieting hard to try and lose weight and it just wouldn’t budge.  i’m currently a size 10 (which you call fat, but i’m also about 5 inches taller than you so i imagine we wear a 10 rather differently.. i’m also more of a kim kardashian, jennifer lopez shape so i’m pretty sure i could be entirely malnourished and emmaciated and never shove my T&A into a size 0) and i’ve been waking up about a pound lighter every morning for the last week and a half without doing anything at all.

 

something similar happened to me in high school… i could not seem to lose the fat body no matter how hard i tried until one day it just kind of melted off (granted the only time i’ve been a 4 was when i was severely depressed and semi-anorexic… i say semi because my weight loss wasn’t really motivated by an eating disorder, but with depression i barely left my bed and probably consumed about 100 calories a day simply because i couldn’t be bothered to eat).  it’s very frustrating working hard for no reward, so like PP my motivation is kind of shot.  i’m hoping this trend of waking up thinner continues for about 20 more lbs.  BEST OF LUCK TO YOU!

Post # 8
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: May 2014

@bbfyso:  First, STOP BEING SO HARD ON YOURSELF.  I do not know you, I have never seen you, or met you,  but I gurantee you that you are a beautiful woman, and the number on any scale would not hinder that fact.  EVER!  There is so much about this post that rings true for me as well.  I, too, have to work every f*cking day to keep myself from getting ‘fat’.  And trust me, it is a constant struggle.  Trust me, I have lost weight and then gained it back only to lose it again, etc.  And each time I yo-yo back up I want to smack myself, HARD.  I want to rip my hair out, and I am so ashamed that I ‘let myself go’.  I am so ashamed that I am ‘fat’ and ‘ugly’. 

 

Until this very last time…

 

There I was, standing in my mirror, criticizing what I had done to myself AGAIN.  I was crying and picking at every thing wrong.  I would get on the scale, and then get off the scale ALARMED at the number I was seeing.  How did this happen!?  And then, something or someone smacked me right then and there. 

 

It was an ‘a-ha’ moment for me.  I started laughing.  I started thinking, and this is what happened.  I realized that my negativity about myself is what makes me UGLY and FAT.  Not my size, or shape, or the scale.  I was my own worst enemy.  I know I will never ever look like a VS model, and really, who or why do I think I should?!  I thought back to all the times I felt ‘skinny’.  It was not that I felt ‘skinny’, it was that I felt GOOD.  I felt healthy.  I felt like I could conquer the world.  I was eating better.  I was working out.  And my head was held up a lot higher.  By default, with those few life choices, I lost weight.  But was weight the goal in all of this, or should it be?!  NO, hell no.  Feeling good IS!  I have a wonderful man whom loves me, I have friends whom adore me, etc, and those things have always been there at my most unhealthy times, and at my most healthy times.  However, the relationships and my attitude were BETTER at my healthiest of times, because I felt better…

 

Look, we can all strive to be ‘skinny’, but skinny does not make you healthy.  I have always believed that there are ‘fat skinny’ people (whom look good on the outside, but whom insides are screaming for some good food), and also ‘skinny fat’ people, whom eat right, work out, and yet, will always have their curves, and their health.

 

I say and applaude any of us being a better version of who we are,  as long as it is done in a healthy way, for healthy reasons.  This, coming from me, upon my realization a few months ago to feel better, NOT to get skinny. I started weight watchers and a running program (that I do 30 minutes a day), and even though the scale shows a 7 lb weight loss, I feel as if 100 lbs has been lifted off my shoulders!  And that is what is keeping me motivated.  Good luck!

 

 

 

Post # 10
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Bumble Beekeeper
  • Wedding: July 2013 - UK

@bbfyso:  Yeah, I’ll keep you posted about bootcamp if you like. I was in the army for a bit and it sounds odd, but I really miss being beasted. It nearly ******* killed me, but you feel such a sense of achievement afterwards. I think civilian bootcamp will be less intense though.

The worst military training weekend I ever went on was one run by my brother, ironically enough. It was only 48 hours, but it was the only time I ate a full rat pack and I was still starving. To put that in layman’s terms, 24 hours of rations are 5,000 calories. So in 48 hours I ate 10,000 calories, was still starving…

… and when I got on the scales after those 48 hours, I was 8lb lighter. I put on about 3-4lb of that again in water weight within two weeks, but the rest was real weight loss… on the down side, though, I couldn’t walk properly for about three weeks, my body was so ******! I couldn’t do anything that intense again now, because I do a lot more driving now, and I wouldn’t be able to drive for any sort of distance for a while after something like that. But I am looking forward to a “middle ground” set of training!

Post # 11
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Busy bee

What Birdi said!  As hard as it is – stop thinking about weight.  What is it about weight anyway, that makes us intelligent women go batshit insane?  🙂

“I will always be fat in my head”.  THIS!  instead of killing it at the gym, try killing this thought from your mind.  THIS is keeping you from being your best healthy self, whatever size that self is!  

You, i have no doubt, are gorgeous and you don’t even know it.  🙂  Hugs to you sweetie!  Whatever size jeans you end up wearing by June is good enough.   

Post # 13
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Honey bee
  • Wedding: April 2013

Good luck on your weight loss! Keep us posted- maybe some pics as you go through the journey!

Post # 14
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Sugar Beekeeper
  • Wedding: November 1999

good luck with all that mess.

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