Not going to lie, my life is not at all going the way I wanted it to.
I always thought I’d get married at 25 and have 2 or 3 kids at some point. Lol what a joke
I’m currently 27 and while I have met the love of my life and I have a stable job and good friends and family, I’m not happy with how things are panning out in my life in general at the moment. Shit keeps getting in the way of my SO and I accomplishing the things we want to out of life.
As we were starting to look at engagement rings, he was unexpectedly laid off from his job. It has been months and he’s not getting anywhere with the job search despite applying for hours a day every day and networking with anyone and everyone. He wasn’t happy with the job he had before and is just feeling lost and overwhelmed with his career right now.
I, on the other hand, have a stable job, but it’s not what I want to do long term. My coworker unexpectedly got injured and they never replaced her so I have been doing double the work for months on end and staffing has been at its worst lately. I’m becoming increasingly unhappy with my job but I don’t know where to go from here, especially with my SO’s current unemployment. I’m overwhelmed with all the things I could do that I’m paralyzed.
All of this has impacted our lives in many ways. Not knowing when my coworker is coming back keeps me in limbo Hell at work where I’m underpaid and under appreciated for the unforeseeable future while a call person gets paid overtime to literally sleep the entire shift while I do the work of two people and have day shift audit my work on top of it, and limbo in my personal life with my SO being unemployed indefinitely.
As far as getting married, we don’t want to spend money on a ring right now and don’t feel we can plan a wedding either since we don’t know what will happen, and we don’t want to just elope or go to the courthouse. We don’t want to give up yet on the vision that we both have.
So this has caused us a lot of “can’ts.” Can’t plan any future vacations (besides the one coming up that we booked over a year ago and would lose money on if we cancelled now) because that would be financially irresponsible right now. Can’t move in together because we had agreed on taking that step after getting engaged. Can’t have kids because we aren’t married yet. Can’t get a dog because we don’t live in the same house yet. Can’t buy a new house because of where we are right now. Lol this is the story of my life
We have considered just announcing we’re engaged, but it just wouldn’t feel the same to me. He knows I’d say yes if he proposed tomorrow, and he’s offered, but it wouldn’t be really engaged to me because we won’t be planning a wedding until he has a steady income.
These are all first world problems, and we are choosing to wait to get married of our own free will. So I don’t feel like complaining about it does any good lol
I’m hoping life gets better soon.