- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2015
I’m going to write this in as little words as possible. My mother changes religion almost as much as she changes her underwear. For the fist 6 years of my life we were Catholic. For the next 10 years we were mormon. After that my mom decided she was an athiest for about 2 years and then was baptised as Christian about 5 years ago. During this time she had her beliefs but personality stayed relatively the same.
It wasn’t until about 2 years ago when she started attending a different chapel (still christian) that I started to noticed a change in the way that she acts, the way that she speaks, almost like a dainty little “yes” woman. If she’s angry she won’t show it. She no longer has an opinion unless its a quote from the bible or some sugar quoted comment. My younger brother and sister still live at home and she puts all her church activities before her family. She hasn’t really had any interest in my wedding (unlike my older sisters 10 years ago) other than asking if I’m getting married in a church. Which I am not.
Basically what I’m saying is this is NOT the Mom I know. Not the woman that raised me and I miss MY MOM. After holding in my feelings for a little over a year. I finally opened up to her and told her EVERYTHING I felt and thought with tears streaming down my face. She just sat there and said “Well I’m sorry to dissapoint you” in the most polite voice. That’s it, nothing else. Then I left…
I don’t know what I’m trying to ask. Not sure if theres even a question. Alot of wedding planning and excitment is between mother and daughter and I guess I’m sad that the relationship is no longer there. Sorry in advance if this is too lengthy, I think I just needed a place to vent. Thank you