- 3 months ago
Semi-regular user going anonymous.
So, I know it is childish, but I can’t help but be disappointed by my Christmas. Maybe it’s because I am tired and working on Christmas, but I am just bummed out. So, first, my husband and I exchanged gifts yesterday since we both have to work today. The gifts he bought me, I would say most of them are things that I would not choose for myself. He bought clothes for me, hardly any of which are in my size. CD’s of bands I don’t really care for (although it’s a genre of music I do like, so he could have genuinely thought I liked them). Some movies that I like, others that I haven’t even seen. I know it’s silly and selfish, but I kinda feel like he doesn’t even know me. I bought him presents that I took a lot of time picking out and he didn’t even seem happy about them. I went out of my way to say how much I loved my gifts, even though I didn’t really and he hinted that a few (including some $100 shoes I bought him) he didn’t care so much for. Also, when I came home he had got off work a few hours before me so he ended up smoking a lot of pot and he was so high I couldn’t even hold a conversation with him and he ended up passing out early. I know this is all first-world, selfish problems but I am just venting. I feel like I have gained so much weight (I have gained 30 pounds over the course of like 8 years) and know that a gym membership would be a waste of money because I will not commit to going regularly and in my mind there’s no point in even going to the gym if I am only going to commit to like a once a month session. My husband and I both love Christmas and do our best to make it really special but I just feel like this year has been such a let down. I am just tired, over-worked and feel very unattractive. More and more I find myself looking forward to two or three glasses of wine after work just to wind down (which does NOT help with my weight problem). Ugh. I feel like the grinch. Thanks for listening to my venting and any advice would be so appreciated.