- 5 years ago
My ex and I were on and off for few years and we lived 4 hours apart. We were planning to meet up last time but the plans kept falling through because of conflicting schedules .Then he ended up meeting someone closer.He even openly admitted that he likes her allot.
I was crushed knowing that he was taking another girl out ,kissing and getting to know her. I understand that he needs someone closer to him but it was a shock and terrible hearing him connecting with someone else.
I told him that it was painful for me watching him dating someone else so its best we go separate ways. He agreed that it was for the best and we wished each other well.
That was 7 months ago and we haven’t had contact since. The thing is, I haven’t had much luck with dating. I had a big crush on another guy from work shortly afterwards which helped me to take my mind off my ex. I found myself looking forward to go to work. I would put more effort into my appearance more if I know my crush was going to work on my floor. My heart would start beating fast when ever I would see him He was also flirting with me and kept complimenting on my appearance so I thought we had potential and he likes me back
However, my crush never made a move or ask for my number. Then I found out from someone else that he has a live in gf. I still had a crush on him but I hardly saw him around after that. Now I don’t see him or his car in the parking lot and his name is off the schedules. I was curious about what happened to him so I decided to ask the lady that does the schedules .She told me that he resigned and has left the company.
I felt bummed and down about it even though I know that nothing would have come out of it since he already has a gf .
Anyways, I have been having an urge to contact my ex since I stopped seeing my crush around which put him out of site out of mind. I don’t know if I am just lonely but my ex has been on my mind and I have the urge to talk to him.
I thought about it more and I decided not to since its bad idea. I am in a vulnerable emotional state and if he is still with the same girl then I would be jealous and upset all over again .I could discover that he is in a happy relationship, getting married, or having a baby. Would I really want to know about that?
The potential cons outweighed my curiosity and I decided not to contact him. Now I find myself feeling jealous again about him being with someone else. I keep thinking what she is like, them hanging out, having sex etc.I don’t if I miss him or if my crush was just a temporary bandeide for my pain?I am not going to contact my ex though for obvious reasons but i cant help to think if i havent delt with my feelings in order to move on or if i just havent found that special someone to replace him
Just looking for some insights
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