- 7 years ago
- Wedding: May 2015
Alright, so just a little background – I work in education as a behavior therapist mostly with kids on the autism spectrum. It’s a nontraditional working situation since I commute around all day to clients’ schools and homes and I don’t see my coworkers and supervisors very often (maybe once a week, more often once every two weeks) and we usually communicate via email. So maybe my feelings have more to do with my work setting but hopefully someone out there can relate.
Working with kids, most of the time you need to be super positive and upbeat, not only with the kids but also with their parents. Everything needs to be spoken about so delicately and the truth is always veiled in positivity. I’m sure people in other fields can relate to this as well because you kind of have to have your “work persona” and keep it separate from your true personality.
I don’t know if any of this is making sense, but basically I feel like I’m telling half-truths by not being myself and honest in all cases and I feel like I’m being lied to by my supervisors who have to straddle the roles of keeping both the clients and the employees happy. I’ve been super down about work lately and no longer feel like I’m doing a good job because of it. Maybe this is just a part of growing up and being an adult, but I’ve honestly always had jobs that I genuinely enjoyed doing.
Does anyone else (especially those working in education) feel like they can’t be themself at work?