- 7 years ago
- Wedding: March 2010
you are constantly in a conflict within yourself between resting and not doing enough?
I’m in school taking three English classes, working around 30 hours a week, and taking a class at work, on top of wedding planning when I can. I come from a family that always tries to do too much. My mom right now is taking five classes a local college, working 40-60 hours a week, as well as trying to hang out with people, and doing the other thousands of things she does. My dad when I lived at home never took a break. He worked in the morning his painting job, and would come home, sleep a few hours, and then go back to work all night long. On the weekends he would not rest at all and would use that time to catch up on painting the house, working on paperwork, etc
No matter how much I tried not to be like them I feel like I’m constantly in a conflict with myself about what to do. I feel like on the one hand I’ve taken on so much all the time that it’s exhausting. I run run run and try to cook dinners, run all the errands, work on everything else and it’s tiring. But on the other hand when I DO rest (like this morning) I feel soooo lazy because I got up at 10:30 am and didn’t get anything important done. I’ve been lazing around.
How do I get control of my emotions so I can find a balance? I always feel like I can never catch up with the list.