Do you ever recover?

posted 2 weeks ago in Waiting
Post # 2
9204 posts
Buzzing Beekeeper
  • Wedding: October 2013

if you’ve agreed to be engaged to be married, aren’t you technically engaged now?

i think you should talk to a therapist about your anxiety and irrationality.  it is a good step that you recognize it.

Post # 3
4212 posts
Honey bee

Get a grip on yourself, it’s not the end of the year yet. Being impatient with a proposal It’s not fair and it’s not even sensible. It’s not his fault that an ex of yours was a douchenozzle. Relationships like you had with your ex are supposed to instruct you to let you know what you will and will not tolerate. Part of this sounds like the blame game. You’re blaming the ex for making you wait so long, so you have to be suspicious and antsy about the current guy. But in fact you were as worthy of blame as the ex was because you tolerated it. Place the blame squarely on your shoulders, knowing you always have the power to end a relationship if it’s not meeting your needs. You’re the one to focus on, not your boyfriend. He’s not making you wait, you’re choosing to wait, of your own volition. 

Post # 4
121 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: November 2020

Oh boy. Do you ever recover? Honestly I think not fully. Something in your heart has been broken and although it’s mostly healed the scar is still there. I think you and your bf have moved at a rather quick pace but he seems very involved in the process, responsive to what you are saying, understanding about your insecurities. It all seems on the up and up and there’s a lot of time and holidays from now to the end of the year. Don’t let one man’s lies cloud your vision of another’s promise. If you can’t reason your way to calmness then I suggest a session or 2 of therapy. I know it seems ridiculous but sometimes just word vomiting the story to someone, telling them all your fears and insecurities, and having them acknowledge those, tell you you are normal, and remind you this is a different situation is all you need. And it’s different coming from a stranger. Your friends, family, and bf can reassure you all day but sometimes you need that little extra so you KNOW they aren’t being biased and telling you what you want to hear. 

It’s just heartbreaking that this previous person has been able to cloud such a wonderful time in your life. Try not to give him that power over you. It’s so hard, and I’m dealing with something similar too so I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. 

Post # 5
580 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: September 2018


I had a traumatic broken engagement after nearly 6 years waiting. When I met my now husband I was very uncertain and although he proposed quickly I had a hard time believing that something wouldn’t happen to make him change his mind. I didn’t find the run up to getting engaged enjoyable at all.

But every day he showed me that I could trust him, and my anxieties got less. I did enjoy actually being engaged after about the first month and he was excited to book things and move forward. 

I don’t really have advice but just wanted to empathise. 

Post # 6
372 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: July 2019

Hi, bee.  Feelings aren’t always rational and I am sorry you are upset. You have admitted that the ex was not the one for you.  If you care for him, be happy for him.  The two of you weren’t right together. The truth is not that he didn’t want to get married, he didn’t want to marry you.  It’s good that he didn’t or you wouldn’t have found your true love.

It sounds like your partner has been very receptive to your timelines and in agreement that you two will be engaged by the end of the year.  As PP said, technically you are engaged because you have already agreed to marry one another.  

It sounds like you picked a winner this time.  I would hate to think that your anxiety from your ex is tainting the experience you are currently having with a supportive partner.   Just know that not everyone is supposed to want to marry you.  You have Mr. Right and that is no small thing.

Post # 7
1679 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: October 2018

Gotta agree with Sunburn bee.  You gave up all your power in that last relationship.  You allowed yourself to get blown off multiple times and believed him when you should’ve trusted your gut and walked away early on.  You, like the rest of us, learned a harsh, painful lesson.  So that fiasco was just as much your fault as it was his.  Own this and a lot of irrational fear goes away.

OWN your power bee.  If you’ve truly learned from that experience then you should be confident that this won’t happen again because if he tries to blow you off or doesn’t stand by his word, you won’t stick around.  First things first tho….

What does your gut say?

Edit:  I just realized that I may have come off a bit harsh and that was NOT my intention!  I hurt for you bee and I’m sorry you’re going through this as I get where you’re coming from.  I’m just coming at this from a practical standpoint of trying to help solve a problem and support you as well.  Sorry about that.

Post # 8
113 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: September 2020

Ah bee. I’m sorry, this sucks and I do sympathise that feelings like this aren’t always in your control or rational. It’s easy for people sitting behind a screen, not experiencing your life, to tell you to pull yourself together. There are good reasons you feel this way, even if it’s not the fault of your current SO. 

The signs of a proposal are overwhelming positive in your current relationship and he hasn’t defaulted on the agreed timeline, so in your position I wouldn’t keep pressing it.

It’s easier said that done, but try and take a deep breath here and reassure yourself that it’s looking good; and that absolutely WORST CASE scenario if it doesn’t happen this year you’ve only wasted two more months. You don’t have to wait years bee, you’re gonna know where you stand very soon and to be honest I don’t think you have anything to worry about. 

Post # 9
1973 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: October 2017

Carob83 :  This situation is totally different! That’s what you need to remind yourself. Before, you waited for 6 years, and allowed yourself to be treated that way. This time, it’s been two, and you’ve been open and upfront with establishing your needs in the relationship. You have a timeline in place. If it doesn’t happen when you agreed, you can leave. The power is in your hands, because you were confident in setting expectations and timelines. Now all you have to do is follow through if he doesn’t. But, all the signs are there, so I think you should relax and trust. It’s almost the end of the year!

Post # 10
2914 posts
Sugar bee
  • Wedding: November 2017

Carob83 :  it’s almost like a mild PTSD reaction I would imagine.  Honestly given what you previously went through I’m surprised you were willing to move in again sans commitment!   I sincerely hope this one comes through for you.  It does sound promising. 

Post # 11
113 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: September 2020

Also…. Your ex married someone only six months after breaking up with you?! 

Post # 12
287 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: September 2020

Sorry for your rough experience. It’s pretty difficult to stop negative thoughts and doubts from going through your head, so instead of trying to stop them, label them for what they are. Tell yourself that everything your current boyfriend does and has done points to a winner who is not lying to you so the negative thoughts are lies caused by your past heartbreak. Don’t feel guilty about having these thoughts, but mentally call them out.

To someone who doesn’t know your previous pain, you appear practically engaged already as you’ve decided the engagement is going to happen by the end of the year and you’re planning to look at wedding venues. This is probably how your boyfriend sees it too, so remind yourself to enjoy this time and let him enjoy it too. If you don’t have to have a traditional proposal, you could propose yourself, but don’t do it out of fear, do it out of celebration. I guess my point is, don’t push him away or threaten a good thing by leaning into these anxieties. Instead acknowledge them, label them, and say I’m going to be vulnerable and enjoy this special time anyway.

Post # 13
10859 posts
Sugar Beekeeper
  • Wedding: City, State

Carob83 :  

You make a choice, Bee.  There is no risk free relationship.  It doesn’t exist.  Your new man sounds wonderful and supportive.  He could be run over by a bus tomorrow.  Life is all about risk.

You do your best to minimize those risks, to the extent that you can.  You avoid stepping in front of buses.  You vet men that you date more thoroughly.  That’s all that you can do.

All relationships are a leap of faith.  You can choose to torment yourself over that which you cannot control.  Or, you can take a deep breath and make the choice to trust.

ITA, about therapy.  You are suffering far more than you necessary.  Learn ways to stop torturing yourself, Bee.

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