Post # 1
I have Borderline Personality Disorder and Histironic Personality Disorder and I really hate it.
I’m in constant need of attention and wanting to go out and socialize with people.
I hate asking people over and over and over again if they want to hang out with me and they decline and decline.
My relationships are horrible, the paranoia of my partner cheating on me, start to become bored of me, and finding me annoying.
One time I had in my mind that if I’m with a guy he can’t have friends that are females because he will be tempted to cheat on me.
With the BPD issue I have a self esteem lower than the Mariana Trench in the ocean.
I always compare myself to other people. Either it’s Katie Morgan or Kat Von D.
When I see myself in the mirror I see the mutants from The Hills Have Eyes not Sherri Moon Zombie.
Does anybody have these disorders?
I want to meet more people who does because no one around my area doesn’t.
Post # 3
Althought I do not have those disorders I work as a therapist that specializes in BPD and know a ton of people who do. There is a really large and supportive group of people on twitter if you are looking for support and connection as well as a ton of blogs I would recommend online and books to read.
buddah and the borderline is a great book to start with
if you are on twitter Sundays I think at 7pm EST there is #DBTchat or search #BPD
Post # 4
I have had one therapist tell me I have BPD. I think it used to be a much bigger problem that it is now. My self esteem still isn’t the greatest, but I’ve calmed down a lot about fears of abandonment. However, my moods are still a little unstable, and I have trouble because one moment I love my friends, the next I’ll feel betrated and annoyed. This used to affect my relationships much more than it does now, because I’ve learned that these feelings do not always reflect reality. I think my partner got the brunt of it, but 5 years of a relationship has calmed me down a lot. The key to dealing with it is to learn to recognize the behavior, for example, that the image you see in the mirror is distorted, and that the cheating you are waiting for is just your fear, not what is actually happening. I don’t have HPD and I’m quite the introvert, but it still stings that I sometimes feel like everyone else has these great lives they are living, and I’m missing out because no one wants to invite me.