- 2 years ago
- Wedding: September 2019
A little back story. I grew up in a male-dominated community period in My Religion man’s word is law. I grew up watching my mother being submissive to my father. He never yelled just very my-way-or-the-highway. I was engaged when I was 26 to the love of my life but he made it perfectly clear that I never meant to him what he meant to me so I called it off. The last guy I dated was mentally and physically abusive he would drop me off at the gym leave me there for 3 hours and only allow me 800 calories a day to eat. He would call me a cow, pig disgusting and whenever we would go out he would always flirt with the skinny or pretty or women. I never want children and I’m terrified of getting married because I don’t want to be submissive to my husband and I worry seeing all of my female relatives and how miserable they are in their marriage is that they might be me one day. I’m almost 30 I work and I go to school for dental hygiene I have all together 3 years left until I graduate. I’ve been told numerous times to do as Oprah or Goldie Hawn are doing just date a man long-term and don’t marry him. Ideally I would love to date a man for 30 40 or even 50 years but what worries me is every man I meet either has kids or wants kids right away. I don’t know what to do I no longer see myself as a wife. But I do want the long-term, monogamous relationship with a good man. Any advice?