- 5 years ago
- Wedding: December 2013
Hi bees –
Forgive my post, but this is more of a pity party for me than me looking for answers.
My ex-FI, Eric, and I broke up at the beginning of this month. I won’t rehash everything that happened, but I had been having doubts of our relationship before we broke up. Still, the breakup came as a surprise as he was the one that initiated it. Someone posted on my other thread that it seemed like he wanted a relationship where the girl was more into him than he was into her, and that clearly wasn’t the case with our relationship. First he told me that he cheated on me, then he told me he really didn’t, but there was a girl that he definitely was interested in.
So it’s been nearly a month and I am so glad the holidays are almost over. I am a teacher so unfortunately I’ve had too much time off to myself to think about things. I am trying to keep busy and I go from having days where I feel really good, to days (like today) where I just want to cry all day. I know this is all part of the healing process and I am expecting a lot of myself.
Well, this obviously hasn’t hit him hard at all, as Eric has been galavanting all over the place with this new girl. He turned 30 in November and I know he had some trouble dealing with that, and this new chic is only 22 (I am 28) so I know his ego is stoked that this younger gal is interested in him. According to my friends (whose boyfriends are still friends with him) Eric and this girl are always all over each other in public – something we never did.
Compounding things was the whole tragedy that happened in CT. It really hit me hard. I did get a text from Eric telling me he was thinking about me and if I wanted to talk he would be there for me. Well I made the mistake of calling him and it was obvious from his tone that I called when she was there. He said he would call me back but he never did. Why oh why did I call him???
We were friends for 2 years before we were a couple and I really miss his friendship. We were a couple for 3 years so to go from 5 years of being together to nothing at all has been harder than I thought. I go back and read my posts about him and all the support you Bees have given me and it reminds me that I am better off without him.
I know I’m a good person, but it just KILLS me that he has someone else already! Couldn’t he wait, like a month? I want him to feel hurt like I am. I want him to have those nights where he cannot sleep wondering if breaking up was the right thing. On New Year’s Eve his brother is getting married and I was looking forward to attending the wedding. Instead, I will be home alone and he will be out partying with her.
I think the icing on the cake was I found out he gave her MY christmas present (a pair of diamond earings)! REALLY???
Enough of my pity party. Thanks for reading.