- 6 years ago
This week has been a very bad waiting week, it’s finally set in stone that there are not enough funds to renew my student visa, and thus I have to go back to my home country. Through the week me and my SO have chatted about getting married so that we can go through the process of getting a green card once things are back on track – but I’m thinking and believing that a marriage will not happen.
For one he’s not proposed, and two we havn’t even set a date for a wedding. I’ve toyed with the idea of proposing to him, but he’s a traditional fellow and I have no idea how he would react to that. Should I test the waters and ask him on his opinion of women whom propose first?
I really thing one or the other needs to happen before I have to leave, I really don’t want to go back to a long distance relationship when I have NO long term commitment from him. Sure he says he wants a future with me, but there is no point talking the talk if your not going to walk the walk so to speak. I don’t know if it is wrong of me to push this upon him at such a time, but I feel that if I went home with no commitment then I will have to break things off and pursue a future else where – after all what am I going to do if I go back as just his girlfriend? I kinda feel like I shouldn’t feel this way, but after so many years I feel like I need answers if I am to go back home.
Urhhh why does life have to be so complecated.