- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2015
ETA: Sorry for this loooonnnnggg message but I need to vent!
I just found out yesterday how severe my younger sister was into drugs. My mom and I received a call from her boyfriend to come pick her up because he doesn’t know what to do with her anymore. I know she is prescribed lexipro and xanax but I am not sure what she is exactly taking. She was standing up at the sink washing baby bottles (she has a 14 month old daughter) and she would either nod out or look like she was falling over. WE got her packed up and out of the house peacefully and she rode with me in her car back to my mom’s house. We left the baby at the house with the boyfriend and his parent’s (They lived in the parent’s house).
Driving to my mom’s with her was peaceful – she was trying to text and kept nodding out or starting a sentence and not completing it. I leave my mom’s to go to my house and apparently she did a 360 and became enraged. She wanted to go out but I gave the car keys to my mom before I left – everybody could see she was in no condition to drive.
She tore my mom’s room apart! Took drawers out of the dresser and flipped all the clothes out and yelling at my mom and stepdad. My older sister (lives at my mom’s with my nephew) got involved to make sure my younger sister didn’t go after my mom. My younger sister attacked my older sister – so they fist fought. She then went after my stepdad and after my mom.
At that point my mom was done. Gave her the key to leave, which she did leave for a few hours, apparently she met up with a friend to talk. She got home around 2 – that’s what she told my mom. She also got McDonald’s before going to my mom’s. but this morning around 7 she was still trying to eat the food.
Younger sister starts texting me this morning about moving into my house. I had to tell her no because I can’t have that nonsense in my house with my 2 kids. SHe got all defensive – saying she isn’t an addict, she was only taking them to numb her pain, since her boyfriend is out of the picture she will be fine. SHe has been lying to us for months and apparently had a perk addiction 2 years ago – that doesn’t just go away! She got fired from her last job because she failed the drug test but she told all of us that she quit because she couldn’t take the hassle there anymore.
I just don’t understand nor do I want to understand addiction. My dad was addicted to heroin, moved away to get clean, overdosed, got clean again, then passed away. My older sister lives at my mom’s because she was addicted to perks and her exboyfriend was addicted to cocaine. My oldest daughter’s dad was addicted to heroin too. Now my younger sister is addicted to who knows what!
I feel no sympathy for anything she tells me. She complains she is tired and exhausted, has one kid, a part time job, lives with her boyfriend and his parents. I work a full time job, have two kids, and live with my fiancee. I am tired but I do not fall over or act the way she was acting. She is 11 months younger then me, had her kid when she was 27 – she had the opportunity to party so I figured this should be out of her system by now. I don’t do drugs and I had my first daughter at 20 and my 2nd at 25 – I just don’t get it.
We didn’t have a terrible upbringing. We got what ever we wanted. I mean we could have had a better emotional support from our parents but it wasn’t like we were abused. She is 28, has a daughter, is a freaking registered nurse and she is in denial about her addiction!!
I am soo frustrated and pissed off and dissappointed and soo many other emotions. I can’t even concentrate on work because of all the phone calls, text messages, my own personal thoughts…I just want to go home!