- 5 years ago
the link above is the previous post, i created a month ago. most of you advise me to let it go and a part of me was willing to do so. but 2 days later i decided to take him his money and other belongings and saw each other, we both agree that we still had feelings anf should try to give it another try. i told him we should take a month apart and that we could text each other but not be all over each other. well he everything was great. we were just texting every 3 to 4 days and he was telling me he was ready to go back that he made a mistake for breaking up and that if i had feelings why not get back together right away. i told him, we should hold off, i need to work on not getting angry so much and trying to see how i can trust you more and you need to work on things too. after that we kept texting he told me to take my time and that he was going to wait all the time i needed. we kept in touch he would tell me i miss you, can i text u more often and things like that. i really thought we were gonna get back, he was understanding and telling to take care of myself and saying love u. just on thursday he once more ask me if he could text me more and i said you can text me whenever. since we were meeting this week, also he was asking his friend to find out diamond prices in the dominican republic, to see if they were cheaper bc he wanted to propose soon to me (this was friday).well last night( sunday) just 3 days later, i said hey since i barely text him in this month (did twice, he texted me like 10 times). and he said hey, can we meet on tuesday to talk, i think we should talk and i have rather do it sooner than later. i asked him why but wouldnt tell me, i agree to tuesday (tomorrow). and then a mutual friend of us rings me and tells me, that he is gonna break up again (my BF) , that my bf didnt want to get back bc we had way too many issues and that my family doesnt like him and his family doesnt like me either and that he thought it was best. so today, i knew what was going on (i created a list of the things i love about him, hate and couldnt live with and things i dislike but could live with) and i ask him to create one, well ofcourse he said no. so i said maybe we should just meet up today and he agreed. we met up, i showed him my list and he told me sorry that we couldnt get back together that he does not feel the same about me that this relationship is not going to work and that he was not willing to try. i had to go to class and i told him i didnt accept it and we should meet after i got off from class. he agreed and said he was gonna think about it, we even kiss and he responded to my kiss. we met after class and he told i actually thought about and i think is best if we dont get back, i burst into tears, he hugs me and tells me dont cry, i care a lot about u, this is the best, i promise. i once again beg him, i told him why would he be texting me and saying cute things all the way through thursday and he said i am sorry it was a mistake i felt that way but this relationship wont work (he repeated that millions of time, while i begged him and also i just dont feel like trying anymore). after many tears (he cried too) i accepted it, told him i thought what he did was unfair and i felt like he had feelings for me but that he was too negative and thought it was not going to work (he said no, i am not negative, is just i know is not going to work ) so i stood there, wiped my eyes, and stop crying and literally didnt move (he was blocking my cars door) and then after 10 minutes of me not saying anything he said i am sorry, this is the best, i wish you the best and hugged me for at least 2 minutes and pull me thighter and thigher and closer and closer, i felt like hugging him but i didnt. he opened the door for me, and waved goodbye and didnt go in to his house till i left. after 30 minutes, i satrted calling me (3 times) and then texted me, since i didnt pick up and said i dont mean to bother you, but i just need to know you got home safe, please reply, i would appreciate it, thanks. i didnt reply
now bees, i am not as misarable as last time, but i am nonetheless pretty sad, i feel played by him. from thursday to yesterday, he changed, i mean from friday and the engagenment thing. he raise my hope, i tried sooooo hard to actually think of a plan to make this work and he once again dumped me. not to mention we meet 2 weeks ago, cause he needed his calculator and when i got there he told i didnt really needed but i wanted to see you and we ate together and had an amazing time, he told his friend that we had an amazing time eating together and told him we were not over and that things were looking pretty good.
today knowing all that, i offered him to just start as friends and see where it would lead to and he said NO.
so i desactivated fb today, deleted backgorund pic from my laptop and phone and have been trying not to think about it, dut sure does hurt, to feel like i got dumped twice by the same guy.
very confused and hurt